Was at probation this morning at 9:30. Explained everything and how
I got in this mess and darkness. Said very unlikely that I be going to
Prison and I would mostly get a suspended sentence order due
To learning disability
Still no letter as yet and be seeing probation officer on monday
Trying not to worry about it too much. Watching Drop dead Fred
Good classic comedy film
Been busy this morning got paid. Still no letter and two days till
Meeting with probation officer I know where to go now so I won't get lost
On Monday plan to be there at 9:30am
Been a Quiet day today had 4 jacket potatoes. Get paid tomorrow
Which good. Expecting the letter next week hopefully. Also Monday coming probation officer at 10am
Had nearly a busy day. With ECG to check blood pressure and heart for health
Safety. Payweek this week watching Simpsons now and castle freak ion YouTube
Bank holiday today stayed in and slept in watching near
The end of S3 of Buffy just one more episode to.go
Watching kitchen nightmares and then Simpsons
Nearly end of August and soon in September. September the 10th I.be
Going to see The nun. Part of the conjuring universe. Also Friends
Will be returning on September 3rd on Ch5
Had to wait in today. To get a delivery of a new fridge.
Finally arrived at 11:30am got it and set it up.watching
The Simpsons now Monday is a bank holiday
Been a very busy day at volunteering cleaning fridge and checking the temperature and also packing 15
Bags at the food bank. Resting now feet are tired
Had a good breakfast ham, eggs, sausages, chopped tomatoes, beans and ham with brown sauce.
Started to drink healthy summer fruit juice and apple juice
Been a peaceful Quiet day. Went out at 9:30am stayed awake all last night.
Enjoying talking about horror films on the forum. And opened up a bit about my life
Had a sausage dinner for my yes.
Went out this morning on a nice sunny day on Saturday
A eerie thing is 18/8/18 is all the 8s lol. Watched a good horror called Mum and Dad
And based on true events Project X. Now watching inbetweeners 2
It is now 21:06PM.
Woke up at 2:20am must have too many things on my mind hopefully I can sleep better on Saturday
Its been mostly good on here met some good people pleasant to talk to
Whenever I post a blog entry that isn't entirely positive, people quite reasonably respond that it's quite reasonable for me to feel that way.
But I don't feel quite reasonable about it. I know what reasonable is, what reality is. But I don't have to like it.
Isn't that the definition of suffering, not liking what is real? Eh, maybe not. More like, not accepting what is real; liking is something else and totally up to the individual. But not accepting is like one of my favorite e
So, here I am in my fourth semester of a master's program in Counseling Psychology. In danger of failing another class.
Maybe it's a Spring thing; that's when I last had this trouble. Maybe it's that my classes this time are again challenging beliefs instead of providing facts. Challenging beliefs should be a good thing; unchallenged ones lack detail and fail to inspire confidence.
But what it feels like is that each class, in a different way, is telling me that I'll make a great
This is probably appropriate for a New Year's post ...
Ten years ago December 30th, I checked myself into a locked psych ward, feeling depressed and suicidal. The amusing thing is how quickly I felt better, isolated away from my ex. By the third or fourth day, folks around me were clamoring to get out; I was quite content in there.
I still had to go back, and stayed with her for just over a year more. But, though I had some periods of depression that year, I found that I had begun
I feel suicidal a lot these days. Something little can make me start thinking about hurting myself and that there is no point. My friend is worried about me and I dont want to bother her. Last two months were stressful, but I had more stressful days in the past, but now I feel suicidal and I dont know why.
There is a t-shirt I have (that is, that I asked my wife to buy me for a birthday) which has a saying on it that inspires me both on the face of it and by the thoughts that it triggers in me. I have considered sharing those before, but have always put it off, fearing that it might end up silly or preachy or make me look foolish. Eventually, though, I realized that my own negativity about how my thoughts might be received was depriving me of the chance to organize those thoughts in writing, and
