today took Cymbalta in AM instead of PM. Either it's a placebo effect or this is definitely helping, except it works off and on. It's like I'll be going about my day, noticing that I'm not depressed and wow isn't that neat, until... Boom. The world is a deep, dark, black, sucking wound of hopelessness, filled with the sooty charred remains from a million broken dreams, wrapped in a blanket of death and choked by the twisted cord of unbearable despair. This will pass after a while though and I'll feel normal again.

No manic symptoms to counterbalance the rapid but deep downswings, so FFS I hope that's not rapid cycling cause I don't want to deal with that. Feel super tired, which is cool since hopefully won't need anything to sleep.