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decisions, decisions - :eek:


SweetSue

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Hmmm, been asked today if I feel ready to go home over christmas for a couple of days....... and honestly - I dont know.

I mean, I am doing better of late, and havnt "slipped" or tried to kill myself despite the urges to do so - not sure if thats coz Ive learnt to cope with the urges differently, or if coz of where I am, that its impossible for me to get up to much along those lines. :o

I want to go home - but not as a temporary measure, damn it. The last thing I want to do is screw things up again. And I'm scared that Im gonna end up doing just that. Maybe though that is a unrealistic fear - I get fearful of the stupidist of things at times. :)

Guess Ive gotten some serious thinking and soul searching to do - sheeze Im not good at being assertive enough to just decide one way or the other - or confident enough in myself to believe whole heartidly that Im not gonna trick myself - AGAIN, coz i know Im really good at doing that :D

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Actually, developing self-awareness is a fascinating thing to watch. :-)

They're your toys; who else should be allowed to throw them?

Just go easy on the walls, it's not their fault either. ;-)

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didnt get much sleep last night, even though im really tired. typical :)

managed to pick up a virus - oh nce one sue(:o) and have spent most of the night spewing - s'pose atleast im allowed to stay in be today, but really wish i didnt feel quite so frigging unwell and rundown :)

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feeling really run down tonight, and proper sorry for myself. im trying to keep head occupied on other thoughts, but thats not really very easy right now.

gonna switch off and pass out in a while, hoping tomorrow is easier somehow - coz today has just been one flashback after another - and ive had enough of them - and of spewing my guts up :D

oh happy days!!! :)

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You're entitled, sweety. No one likes being sick.

I'm doing at least as well as can be expected. :-)

I volunteered to do a craft with 'finding'; specifically, I'd like to sew a stuffed animal, but I'm not sure if my skills are up to it. And nothing gets her excited as much as a craft project ...

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Well I don't know if I'm entitled but I'm certainly in a woe is me mood

Craft sounds fun , just relax and enjoy it, coz however the finished article ends up - its how it should be :)

I'm trying to work out findings christmas songs - now that is fun, to me anyways:o

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Everybody can sew big bro - just to different standards. However your sewing turns out will be fine. Its the taKing part that counts and if yyour as bad at sewing as me then you will soon learn to see the funny side. What can be better than that? :)

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Yah, but I don't want my plushie to leak ... :-)

I've actually done some hand-sewing before, as a kid. We even made a plush animal, though because I don't remember it very well, I must've been small. Mom had a sewing machine, so she could have fixed things without me even knowing.

I just want something to do with my hands.

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Back when I worked in a drugstore and we sold stuffed animals, we called them "plushies" because they were often covered in plush fabric.

It's not dumb; words are used differently on either side of the Atlantic.

I'm doing okay, sweety. How about you, are you still feeling bad?

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Been tHrowing up all night- its not good . This virus is hitting me for six. Thanx for letting me know what a plushie is :)

Ach do ya know I've seriously just about had enough the now. Times change And I wish myne would.

Love yoy big bro

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i feel really washed out :) and my throat is killing now from spewing so much:(. ive had to ask the staff to call me a normal doc - coz what goods a p'doc who thinks illness is all in the mind. Well p'doc reckons my tummy upset is down to stress - idiot.:mad:

hope your all ok and having some seasonal fun :D

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at the moment im struggling with the occasional sip of water - dont think im gonna risk a yogurt smoothie just yet. been given a injection to try and calm the sickness down - hoping that'll work soon :D

thanks for the hugs big sis :D

and the christmas trees are well cute, thankyou :D

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