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decisions, decisions - :eek:


SweetSue

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Hmmm, been asked today if I feel ready to go home over christmas for a couple of days....... and honestly - I dont know.

I mean, I am doing better of late, and havnt "slipped" or tried to kill myself despite the urges to do so - not sure if thats coz Ive learnt to cope with the urges differently, or if coz of where I am, that its impossible for me to get up to much along those lines. :o

I want to go home - but not as a temporary measure, damn it. The last thing I want to do is screw things up again. And I'm scared that Im gonna end up doing just that. Maybe though that is a unrealistic fear - I get fearful of the stupidist of things at times. :)

Guess Ive gotten some serious thinking and soul searching to do - sheeze Im not good at being assertive enough to just decide one way or the other - or confident enough in myself to believe whole heartidly that Im not gonna trick myself - AGAIN, coz i know Im really good at doing that :D

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Well I will be taking Gertie with me - and I can't hurt myself with her, so I'm hoping I will be able to keep her with me - if not then she will have to go into the locker in their office along with my phone and laptop.

I really messed up big time, this time.

Thanks for saying 'be ok' you know what that means to me

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Hmmm, the mess up wasn't good. Kinda had0 a lot of prn's then another patient sold me some drugs - yeah I know I should know better. Then well hello mad bitch (that'll be me) and I kinda went really doo lally in a bad way. - I'm stitched up now and guess I'm mending - its painful but not as harmful as the places my head takes me too. So yeah, I'm fine(ish) physically. just stupid and there is NO cure for that

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Ach. Stupid isn't that harmful: Forrest Gump made it through. :-)

I'm sorry you're in pain. And that now, it's physical as well. {After all, messing up doesn't really stop the head-places from happening, does it?}

I just hope you'll take care of my lil sis for me, that's all.

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A BRAND NEW YEAR!!!

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