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Im worthless

Andromeda

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I cant take this anymore. My life is mess. I need to feel secure in my life and to have somebody who makes me feel like this, but my mother and father just scream and I never feel safe. Im so tired of anxiety. My friends make me feel fine and happy, but it wont be for long, because its my last year in university. I just want not to feel so alone. I have problems with my health and I dont have money to do something. Its hard for me to find job,because I look shy and stupid. Im worthless. Im trying not to feel suicidal, but when I think where my life is going-its hard.



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I'm sorry you've been struggling, A. It's difficult enough going through a challenging time with the support of loved ones. It must be that much more difficult when the people in your life do not understand and/or they appear to minimize your experience. :( I hope you are able to make a choice about medications that you feel would be best for you.

I also hope you feel better this week.

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Yes I feel better this week. Maybe because I saw my friends and we had walk in the park. The weather is better now and this helps too. I can go out more often. I dont know about the medications. My friend who is depressed went to psychiatrist and she gave her antidepressants. So I hope she will feel better. Im not sure if its good idea for me. Im kind of scared of side effects. I know I can stop medications or change them, but still if this happen my mother will say that she is right . But my firend said if I need to go to psychiatrist she will come with me. Its nice to know that and that she care about me.

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On 3/18/2017 at 4:19 AM, Andromeda said:

but still if this happen my mother will say that she is right

i hate it when people do that, specially when they're not actually right.

 

On 3/18/2017 at 4:19 AM, Andromeda said:

But my firend said if I need to go to psychiatrist she will come with me.

i'm glad you have at least one good friend. :)

 

On 3/18/2017 at 4:19 AM, Andromeda said:

Its nice to know that and that she care about me.

we care about you too, andromeda. :)

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I just wasnt in a mood to write. My father came to see us and first days things were fine, but last days he and mom are fighting a lot and he is dissappointed in me.Because I still have two exams that I have to pass and I had problem with them. I was ready for one of them, but I had nervous break down and I didnt went. He said that I dont do anything. He dont understands mental illnesses. So Im not sure that I will graduate this year :(. I want to be able to do meaningful things,but I dont feel capuble enough.

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On 2017-05-28 at 10:53 PM, Andromeda said:

I just wasnt in a mood to write.

I see (I know that, too)...

I'm so sorry you're still receiving those hurtful, untrue messages from your parents :( ... They cause the thing they deplore: Their words result in your mental problems and then they criticise you for the consequences.

On 2017-05-28 at 10:53 PM, Andromeda said:

I want to be able to do meaningful things

This is important; I hope you can keep this wish. ("To compare", for the past few years, my problem has been that I've lost even the motivation to do anything, most of the time - believe me, it's even worse...  Don't let yourself to get there...) I hear and understand that you don't feel capable. But it's what you called it: a feeling. You are capable of doing meaningful things, but you need to "find your way". In the meantime, there are many "small" meaningful things that you do: Maintaining relationships (friendships, the relationship with your aunt), for instance. Trying to study as well as it's possible under the circumstances. 

Take care!

 

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I'm sorry you're so lonely... :( 

I admire that you keep going to the park :)  ! I'm sure it's better than staying home, even despite those feelings of loneliness.

Also; thanks for posting on my blog; you're right (in what you wrote there)... Sorry for being so inactive (-not reacting), but you know; sometimes one doesn't feel like writing... But I've been writing some long e-mails in the meantime and that kept me busy (and "off blogs")...

:sad_huggy:

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This week was better. Maybe because Im studing biochemistry with one of my friends so I had some funny moments. I saw my other friends this week too and we will go out tomorrow. Im just scared that when Im not with them I feel bad and suicidal and I dont have reasons to feel like that at the moment.

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I'm glad you are feeling better, Andromeda. It sounds like the interactions and the company of others is helpful to you now. We all need human connection, I think.

Are there moments when you feel okay with yourself alone?

I hope you have a good week. Take care.

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Hello Andromeda, do not Strain youself.

Pun: Movie from 70's called "Andromeda Strain"... Alien microbe comes to Earth.

 

I am a student also. 

I know how hard it is, I have faith you can overcome your fears.  You done this all throughout your life already y/n?

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