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same here, bro.

I find eating out with friends somewhat awkward now too, since I became vegan. There often aren't a lot of available options at most local restaurants. It's true that the events of daily life are rarely predictable. I struggle at times with adjustments too, but (as k would say) the terrain is ever changing and that's one thing we can count on. I think the ability to press on and keep trying speaks to a resilient spirit. I hope you will continue to keep on keeping on and hopefully the road ahead becomes clearer for you. There's been a stomach flu going around here in town as well, though fortunately our family has remained healthy thus far. I hope you feel 100% again soon.

What would have helped? If my parents never met, that would've helped a lot. Sorry for such a depressing comment. I often try to keep the pain to myself but sometimes I can't handle it. I honestly honestly wish they'd never met. My mother told me she tried aborting my sister because she was too young at the time. The attempt failed. I found myself wishing she'd had tried aborting me and succeeded. There is literally nothing desirable about me. I'm short, fat, low iq, small dick. All of which leaves me wondering, why am I even here?

Thank you for this post and your other posts, @YahwehOrTheHighway. I have been lurking in this forum off and in for years, and this inspired me to step out of my shell and tell my truth. I have suffered silently since 9th grade and now i am 38. I have no one to talk to about this issue. Even as adults, there is a taboo about being small. This is insane. I wish i had the balls to just be open and unashamed and own it and eventually be proud and confident about my body, but i feel like i can't. I would rather suffer in silence and pretend like i don't feel small and worthless and emasculated. Even in the face of huge life stresses and risks, i think, i would play the loser in every other category of life, just to have a couple more inches or more girth. Like if i could just make a girl's jaw drop in amazement at the sight of my dick, just once, then i could handle all the worst of what life can throw at me, and be just fine. But here i am, quite privileged in so many ways, but lacking in the one place that means the most to me.