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Hi, First I want to say that I am sorry for my bad english. I don't know why I am writing this but hopefully it will save some other boys and men. I am a man in my middle 30's and I have had a very good childhood and family. When I was about 6-7 years old I noticed that I had a smaller penis and scrotum than other boys in my age, from then I was always worried if I ever can get normal size of the genitals. I had tight foreskin and when I was about 10 years old the school doctor sayd that I have to do exercises to get it looser. From when I was 10 years old I didn't show me nude anymore because of my genital size. I exercised the foreskin and it gave results. I don't know if my mother was worried if the foreskin was ok or if she was worried about my genital size but she asked her friend (a woman in same age as my mother) to come over and have a look at my penis which I remember was an awful thing, when I had to show my little penis to her. Maybe 1 or 2 years after that I was outdoor playing with some friends. Then a man came to us (the man was my mother's friend's husband who had seen my penis) and said that we are on his property and we have no permission to be there, at the same time he said something about my small penis so that my friends heard it. First I thought that how can he know that I have a small penis but later I knew that my mother's friend had told him after seing me. When I was 12 we had to take a shower after sport in school, and then I had to show me nude, after that I was bullied because of my small penis. I told my parents and then they talked to the sport teacher that I didn't want to take showers anymore, and the teacher accepted that, so I didnt' take showers anymore after that. The teacher maked sure that I shouldn't be bullied anymore, and I wasn't. When I was 15 years old I heard when two adult men talked about a man who had been dead for 40 years, they said that he had a small penis and was laughing. The dead man was an alcoholic and didn't have a wife, and I know that he tried to kill himself when he was younger, but didn't. I have also heard that he took his life later but I don't know if that is true. So my small penis comlex became worse and worse. I am about 6 feet tall and quite muscular with much body hair and I know that if I didn't have this small penis complex I probably would have a wife and children today. Many girls has been interested but I can't bee with a woman, it is a lock in my head. I am always thinking that later when she see me nude she will laught at me or will leave because of my small penis and scrotum, it would destroy me totally. I have never been with a woman, one time when I was drunk i was dancing and kissing a woman. I have a very small scrotum ( sometimes the scrotum is not visible at all) and small flaccid penis and when it is erect it is little more than 5 inch long and 4 inch in circumference, but it is working. I am a hsp (highly sensitive person), so this situatione is probably even worse for me than for somebody who isn't a hsp I don't know how many times the school doctor has seen my genitals but did nothing. I had probobly something with the hormons and now when it is so easy to read about that on the internet it is a shame that the doctor's did nothing. Last time when a school doctor saw me was when I was 14. I didn't know that it was possible to receive hormons then because I had not the internet. Why didn't I receive testosteron or something, that question I have asked me many times. I have been very depressed in my life and it has become worse and worse. The suicide thougts has became very strong and I don't know how this will end. I know that my sister's and their children and my parent's would go under if I killed myself. But i have noticed that when I am at the lowest point the thought's of my family if I kill myself is disappearing. Life is hard

Your English is good Grief. I am not happy w my body either. But we have as much right to life and happiness as anyone else. I hope things get better for you.

Sounds like you've had a really hard time, thanks for sharing. It's not an easy thing to put up with, but it does get easier. You haven't got a micropenis, it's just small flaccid by the sounds of it, which is know from experience is a nightmare, but statistically you're of average size (I know that doesn't help much) but it is true. Anyway, you're among friends here, keep posting ☮

I've been doing it a while now, building up to weighted stretchers. If I'm honest the feeling of my balls being slightly tugged is incredible. But fuck me are there heavy ones out there, really worth checking you're weights, some are ungodly. Thanks for the concern tho, I've had some reservations myself.

@Victimorthecrime I'm going to need that positive energy, because a reduced workload is out of the question for a while. I'm unofficially responsible for the outcome of a project that has been going on for some time & deadlines are ever looming. Job security problems must suck, idk, that's a whole new level of stress.

@Victimorthecrime Blah. Looks like the workplace is fucking us both. I hope it becomes more bearable for you somehow. It's mostly the workload for me. I'm always drowning in it, every moment of every day I'm addressing problems in my mind, then double checking it on a Sunday. It's like I'm losing my sense of identity, and transforming into an employee sort of thing.

I think my job has burned out my adrenal glands. So much drama & bullshit I am just numb to it. I know you like certain aspects of your job Small, what part of it has you stressed? Deadlines? Asshole coworkers/managers? Did they change the dress code to no longer allow onesies?

i missed the action again.

^ The period fairy strikes again.