hi guys, I thought it would be immensely cathartical if I joined the discussion. I stumbled upon this thread while browsing the web... I'm posting from Europe. I'm 29 and my life has been devastated by a short and skinny penis. 5 inch erect and 4,4 inch girth. It's so liberating to contact or get in touch with someone who can relate to my own problems... reading your posts was like looking into the mirror. I cried dozens of times because of my problem. Personally I think it's a curse to lead a life with a small penis. I often pray to God for help (was raised in a very religious family), but I think nearing 30 there is nothing I could potentially do, unless a miracle happens. Basically, I'm stuck. I realized that I was small when I hung up with a girl when I was 17, first she gave ma a BJ and then she chuckled for a while and stared at me sorrowfully until the rest of the evening... She was disenchanted and disappointed because since the very moment the party had started, the were sparks flying between the two of us... We flirtet a lot, drunk 2-3 beers...we had a great time together so obviusly, she was counting on a good sex, and perhaps even sth. more... I disappointed her so badly. After we left the bedroom, we talked for a while... no phone numbers, nothing. we never spoke to each other again. Since then I never had sex with another woman. I'm too afraid to go for it , for the devastating fear of rejection. I like women. I do understand them. They just want big dics, because sex is an important part of their life. Just like it's an importnant part of men's life. Women are compassionate creatues, they will not laugh at you directly, or be unkind in any other way. They just feel sorry for you deep inside, they know you're hurting, they know you're not a material for a boyfriend or husband, they think you're a really nice guy because they had already decided to have sex with you but that's it... just don't count on anything else. They can even be your friend afterwards, but how humiliating will that be for you... And I don't blame them, do you ?? Can you?? We have no right to blame women for our own problems. It's the mother nature who did the trick on us. During the course of time, I was able to get education, get a well paid job. I had enough self-determination to achieve AT LEAST this... despite my tremendous insecurity. When I was 21, already knowing that I'm small and probably doomed, I decided to enroll at a good University and had the guts to graduate, and then had some luck too, in finding a nice job. During all that time I thought that perhaps time will bring some solutions regarding my penis, maybe I can grow it somehow, maybe it's not even that small, maybe I'm exaggerating, or maybe the next year they will discover some magic pills for penile growth... I'm quite handsome too. Girls like to flirt with me. I try to dress well. I keep fit and groom myself. Those who don't know me think that I'm a real player. I own a nice , expensive, sporty car. When I cruise it on Saturday nights I relish the stare of all those hot young chicks, whom I will never be able to have sex with. And if I should ever happen to, they will inevitably laugh at me. Dump me. Reject me. I will never be able to satisfy them properly. It tears me apart. It's devastating. My car, my relative well-being is my fall-back, it's my last resort of happiness. But hey, I'm in the VERY SAME PLACE as you guys. We're in the same place, peroid. I will probably never be able to get married, have children etc. Any further comments will be appreciated. It's obvious that you can't talk about this issue with ANYBODY among your inner circle of friends or family, so it's great I found you guys. Small penis is a curse.