lousmom

I am in my early 30's. I used to cut myself in high school and some after. I haven't since I got married and had my daughter, until recently. I don't know what to do and I don't know why these feelings are coming back to me. I feel so out of control and I can't stand that. My family doesn't know, and no one would ever guess if they met me, but I am just so angry and sad and I don't know what to do. It's not all the time, just any small thing can put me in a rage and I hold it in until I can get alone where no one will hear me crying or completely falling apart and then I SI. I live in a very small town and there isn't anywhere for me to go talk with someone so I'm just looking for anything that may help. I don't know why I'm losing control again or how I had it together for 6 years and now I'm falling apart.