JuliaJean

Hello. I'm 15(female) and when I was 14 i was "raped" or "sexually assaulted". I use quotations because i don't believe it "qualifies" to be called that. If you could take a few moments to read this quickly and tell me if you consider what happened to me "rape" or not i would very much appreciate it! I had a 16 year old boyfriend when i was 14. He got very serious very quickly and i trusted him because he was a not-so-close family friend. One day, he told me to give him oral sex. I refused. He proceeded to ask again, demanding it. I refused. He then slid his penis across my face and told me to give him head. I told him no. He grabbed him head and forced me to give him it. I didn't know what to do. I froze. I wanted to run and scream and cry and never come back. But i just sat there. Later that night, he told me a was awful. But he told me he was sorry he made me do it and would never do it again. The next time, he drove out(a few weeks later) by the lake; he told me i couldn't leave until i gave it to him again. Once again, i froze. Through tears i did what he was telling me. The relationship ended rather quickly after that. My therapist said it was "rape" but that word seems to harsh and illegal. I just cant accept it. Would you consider what he did rape or sexual assault? (I have flashbacks to this day about the incidents and the i avoid his street as much as i can {but he lives just a block from me, so its nearly impossible}) Please offer any advice possible! Thank you!