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IrmaJean, sitting with those feelings doesn't help

Hello out there. I'm struggling. Not in a big way but enough to get in life's way. Funny how when you have an emptiness within you, it feels so so heavy. Keeps you up at night, a mangled ball in the pit of your stomach, and you just cry and cry - you can't identify it, you don't know why, or how to fix it. And then you find yourself on a website trying to make sense of it all, to make sense of yourself. Wondering if anyone out there feels the way I do. Ive had an eventful life and in attempt to make sense of it, it's caused me more harm than healing. I still find myself in a battle between what I know and what I feel. How is it that I can recieve all this help but still be so confused and so broken? I know I'm being pretty vague here - public forums always make me squirm. Don't know what to say, what not to say but I reckon the general idea is out there, yeah? I'm not really sure what I'm looking for by coming here. I never really seem to know. The only thing I do know is that I search it out when I need people around and it usually makes me feel a little less alone.

Hey! I recognize these names! Hope you're all doing well!

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