whenever there are marriage troubles, you want to get both sides of the story before you come to any firm conclusions. However, it doesn't take a psychologist (which I am by the way) to know you are being abused. YOU ARE BEING ABUSED! This husband of yours is extremely controlling, verbally insulting, etc. YOU NEED HELP, either to 1) get out of the marriage entirely, or 2) to learn to safely assert yourself within the marriage if it is possible so that you can get the freedoms back that you deserve. Frankly, your husband sounds **Paranoid** to me. At least he is in the neighborhood of paranoid personality disorder: "a pervasive distust and suspciousness of others such that their motives are interpreted as malevolent, begining by early adulthood and presents in a variety of contexts, as indicated by four (or more) of the following: 1. suspects, without sufficient basis, that others are exploiting, harming, or deceiving him or her 2. is preoccupied with unjustified doubts about the loyalty or trustworthiness of friends or associates 3. is reluctant to confide in others because of unwarrented fears that the information will be used maliciously against him or her 4. reads hidden demeaning or threatening meanings into benign remarks or events. 5. persistantly bears grudges, i.e., is unforgiving of insults, injuries or slights 6. perceives attacks on his or her character or reputation that are not apparent to others and is quick to react angrily or to counterattack 7. has reoccurring suspicions, without justification, regarding the fidelity of spouse or sexual partner. Any of this sound familiar? I think you have at least four, maybe more that you can check off based on your description. When it comes to paranoia, there is the personality disorder form and then there is the psychotic form, associated with schizophrenia. In that form, there is a break with reality and the form of the paranoia can get really odd looking. In non-psychotic paranoia, your husband might suspect that you are cheating on him. In psychotic paranoia, your husband might suspect that you are a creature from the 12th dimension come to eat his soul from the inside out. See the difference? On the surface of things, I'd say that your husband has the non-psychotic form - the personality disorder, but when you factor in his religiosity and when you say I'm frankly not so sure this is not the psychotic form of paranoia - a lite version to be sure. Even in my very short time working on locked inpatient psychiatric units, I saw many people who manifested with religious delusions. So long as such people keep to themselves (as your husband does apparently); don't act out their craziness too publically; and stay functional in terms of being able to earn a living, etc. their illness (which would be Schizophrenia or something similar) can remain undetected for years. So yes - based on your report, you may very well be living with someone who is diagnosably mentally ill and in need of care - which given the nature of his core paranoia - he will not ever be motivated to receive treatment for. Some resources to read: - Our Abuse topic center article - Our Schizophrenia topic center article. - In the Schizophrenia topic center, specifically read this page about the types of delusions that some people with Schizophrenia will experience, including Persecutory and Religious delusions Like other people who have responded, I too suspect that this is a potentially dangerous situation which you should get out of sooner rather than later. I note that he's already got you accepting a pattern of increasing isolation and dependence upon him. He controls the money, he controls the internet, he controls the transporation. The typical abusive pattern here is for him to slowly but deliberately strip you of all the things that make you capable of living without him or escaping from him or having any sort of independent life. This is done slowly along with a steady stream of talk designed to make you think that all of this is happening because you are a bad, ugly person, etc. He will tell you how useless you are; how no one else would ever want you; how stupid you are; how it's just charity that he's keeping you around. And - if you stick around in this echo chamber you're living in - chances are pretty good that you'll come to believe that it is true (though it is not true!). It's important to start asserting yourself and standing up for yourself NOW while you still have some self-respect left. If you wait, it will get harder and harder to do. That's how these things tend to work. Others have suggested things you could do on that account - such as reaching out to the local women's shelter. I can't say how important it is that you learn how to drive and that you demand to have access to a car at all times. In the USA a car equals freedom. Without access to transportation, you can't even get to the women's shelter if you need it, and he has that much more control over you, maybe enough to keep you down permanently in his dominance game. You need to learn how to drive if you're going to live in the USA where I guess you are living - people who live in the USA who cannot drive are helpless (unless they live inside a major city). Expect your husband to fight you on any attempts you make to learn how to drive as that will lessen your dependence upon him. If you are ready to leave, maybe you are packing bags now. But that would not be typical. More typical is for someone like you to get caught on the "but I love him" stuff. The sentiment and feelings of duty and honor and obligation that bind you to him. A lot of dead women (physically and emotionally both) and men have stayed with their abusers "because I love him". So let me ask you, and please respond so that everyone can help you pick it apart: - What is it about this guy that you love. - What are the factors that bind you to him (love, money, education, whatever) - Do you believe that you cannot get along without him? - Do you believe that you are better off without him or with him? Why? Looking forward to your response.