nikki348

i'm 21 and i've been in and out of school since i graduated high school. i decided maybe i should just try working but i have no motivation to get a job because i have no friends or big passion or will to live honestly. my parents can't be paying for me like this anymore and my mom has gotten so hard on me lately but i just can't have some shitty job just to make some money to come home, do nothing, and wake up the next morning to do the same thing. i kinda want to go back to school in january but with a different mindset pretty much just to meet people and take fun classes and experience life. yeah it's ridiculously expensive but i feel like i need to be impulsive and do that now and worry about the consequences later when i have other reasons to live. i cry all the time and i'm rly depressed. idk

You raped her. Period. It doesn't matter that she consented at first because when she fell asleep she was not aware of what was going on so she couldn't consent. Which makes you a rapist. The circumstances do not matter at all. This was, by definition, rape. You need to get some real help because you can't be feeling sorry about yourself on the internet and have people tell you that it's ok to be a rapist just so you know it's wrong.