HellBound_Angel

I am in the same position as you. I have been diagnosed with aspd also and am looking for a good online support site for those with it. i am finding a ton for family members but only one so far for those with it and on that site it seems none of them want to get better and are happy with the way they are. I guess you are right about there being so very few of us that truly want help and want to change. I see a psychiatrist and counselor and am on Clonazapam, clonadine, trazadone, lexapro, and latuda currently to help with my symptoms. I am married and have 3 kids and because of my disorder my marriage is very strained. As in so bad we arent speaking or being in the same room as each other . This really upsets me cause i do love my husband and want things to be better for us. We are in marriage counseling but right now he just doesnt think i want the help or realize how i am when i do. its very hard to try and change and get better when the one person you want support from most dont believe you or trust you because of the past. I do want to be a better person and change and get all the help i need. I wish there was more support groups for people like you and me that genuinely want help.