Ravenkitten

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I live in the United States and I attend a University outside of my home state. I'm only 20. I'm afraid that I'll end up one of those people who never finish college and has to work several minimum wage jobs to make ends meet or becomes homeless. I already had to pick up a second job while in school because my current one cut back our hours. Living in the States is an absolute nightmare

My GPA dropped below what is allowed in that particular school. I very much hope that my appeal to stay will go through though. I am not medicated for my severe depression or (possible) PTSD and it has been weighing down on me since high school. I thought I could handle it on my own without medication but I was very wrong. It is very hard to tell my parents things. It always has been. I love them very much and appreciate all they've done for me but it has always been hard for me to talk to adults, even though I am one now too.

I am ending this year as a 20 year old female whose depression has worsened since high school, and whose year has been absolute shit. Reasons why 2015 has been the worst year of my life so far: Monty Oum, someone I looked up to very much, died at the beginning of the year. I suffered my first severe panic attack shortly after his death My depression began to worsen I had to start therapy I discovered that a good friend was actually a toxic friend I only got to come home for one month due to summer school I had several more panic attacks over the summer I lost my financial aid My boyfriend of four years broke up with me I have been disqualified from the school I was studying in before I could switch I may end up being disowned by my parents for being kicked out of school I very much want to kill myself because I would rather die than be a disappointment This year has not been kind to me at all, and it's almost like high school is repeating all over again. My therapist from school said I might have PTSD, so along with my depression, it's just a whole crock of shit.

There has always been a lot of pressure on me to be the best child and make the best of what my parents provide for me. They always say how if I ever do certain things, I will be disowned. Don't get pregnant while in school, finish college, get a good job, buy a house, etc etc etc. Everything is constantly weighing down on me and ever since high school I've had this fear of disappointing my parents. Especially my dad. Both of my parents, my mom especially, always remind me how hard of a life my dad has had so far. They use this to make me do my best. I was just disqualified from the school I've been studying at for two and a half years and I am so afraid that my parents will stay true to their promises and kick me out of the house. They will disown me. Since receiving the letter my mind has been playing one phrase over and over and it kicks up my suicidal urges: I would rather die than be a disappointment. If I can't transfer to another school on the campus, or my petition does not go through, I will have no home. No family. And hundreds of thousands of dollars in debt that I will never be able to pay back on my own. Since I was an avid competitive shooter throughout my high school years, I have plenty of access to the numerous guns in my home safes. Please help me. I don't want to do this. I don't want to keep hating myself for constantly screwing up the chances I get. I don't want to hate myself at all but it's so hard.