nope

I was on Invega for almost a year. At first, I loved it. Then, after a while, the shots started wearing off after 3 weeks and I went spend a week in total hell while waiting for my next shot. Each shot hurt worse and for longer than the last. I had a fear of needles before even starting Invega, but now I go into a full blown panic attack just seeing a needle because of my experience with Invega. This is just me though. People are different.

Actually I'm being alienated by a lot of friends and family for being a disgusting human being with no morals. It happens, I guess. Deleted 99% of people from my Facebook a couple days ago and stopped making posts about anything at all as an experiment to see if anyone would reach out to me/notice... So far, nothing. Not even a single message from the people I kept, minus my wife and Mom. Going into the new year with just close friends, and seeing what I end up with in the end. Finances come and go, that's life. Wife and I deal with everything as it comes, as we always have, and always will.

My name is NOPE and I'm a married man with 2 kids. I am a paranoid schizophrenic and I suffer from depression and panic attacks. I smoke cigarettes and drink beer. Just looking for some support and people to babble my senselessness to when problems surface in my life. My current situation is that my car, which I'm still paying for, is in a repair shop. It's stressing me beyond belief because only my wife works, as I am a stay at home dad and collect supplemental security income. My wife however has missed a lot of work recently with the birth of our second child and then breaking her foot. She has gotten one pay check in December and isn't expecting another for another 2 weeks. With my SSI coming on tomorrow and what is left of that pay check I MIGHT be able to pay for the car repair and rent. Leaving behind, until she gets paid again, luxury items such as paying our bills, car insurance, car payment, and food. I'm not asking for handouts or anything like that, just stating what is going on and why I am at wits end. I have so much more I would like to tell everybody, but each issue will have to wait.