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Wish it was different for you or I knew what to say to help.

That truly made me laugh. I do a lot of stuff until I'm blue in the face. I'm stubborn as hell!!!! But I think if we understand why we act the way we do, it can help us process things better and maybe deal with things better. Just me. Like I said, I'm stubborn! I refuse to accept that I can't do something, or at least do it better. So many times my reactions are less than ideal, for both me and people around me. When the emotions subside, I spend at least a full week analyzing why I did what I did. Makes me feel like I'm doing something that "could" avoid a repeat. Don't ask me my success rate.

I can't and won't argue with that as I agree. However, I believe there is something to be learned from how people react to situations. if the situations are significantly different, there is little to be learned when comparing. The more similar they are, the more relevance they have to each other. For example, if two people witness the exact same incident (a murder), the point of view will undoubtedly be different from their specific locations, what they were doing, state of mind, etc. But that doesn't mean there isn't something to be learned from comparing the differences in reactions.

I agree that lots of idiots write stuff that is pure junk. However it has always fascinated me how people with similar circumstances can sometimes have such differences in both outlook and how they describe it. I agree though that its nearly impossible to truly understand how it is to be in unbearable circumstances unless you have experienced it.

Robert, sorry to read about your loss of faith and the feeling that you have nothing now. A belief in God is a very personal decision. As someone who has struggled with the question of if there is a higher power for most of my life, I understand your battles. I hope you find reasons to keep going. You are correct in that we don't have a choice in how we are born. And it does seem so unfair in so many ways. I personally don't believe in God as mainstream religions worship, such as the bible. That doesn't mean I rule out the possibility of a higher power. Personally, I view life as a quest to constantly learn, and if I learn what I should, I will continue to become a stronger and better person. So basically, that there is always something to be learned with every situation and person that impacts our life, no matter how bad and difficult it is. Maybe its my way of trying to see the silver lining in bad situations. Was I put into those situations by a higher power to learn the lessons I need? Is it just random? I tend to believe it's by design, but that's just me. Even though I don't know you personally, I encourage you to keep going. I would guess that fear is not the only factor in keeping you from ending your life and that you would have to muster up enough courage. It takes a tremendous amount of courage to just keep going, even when we feel like it's hopeless. To express your fears and feelings is courageous itself.

Great to hear you are doing better and love that you are pursuing something you seem to really enjoy. Awesome update!

Too funny. Yes, being diplomatic has always been my M.O. My counselor use to point that out about all the time.

Glad you are fine Klingsor. Irma has a good point in that we need to "try" and be understanding of each other. I personally don't see any Bullying or belittling in Rogers posts, but I don't walk in your shoes and interpret things differently. Great example for me is Resolute. In many cases, I don't necessarily agree with his posts. In fact sometime my instant reaction is to be offended. I was instantly offended by his comments about successful relationships are the results of men being pussies (paraphrasing) was to be offended. After all, I'm in a relationship. But when I step back and think, I realize that is his opinion based on his perspective. I have a different perspective obviously. But I have come to appreciate his thoughts because it forces me to think of things from a different perspective. Sometimes I actually learn something. With that said, I believe IrmaJean is right on when she says its a balance. I personally want to be in a relationship where both the man and the woman are truly happy. It's an ever changing goal so it's impossible to say "we've done it" but that is what I work towards. I have no doubt that if I call all the shots, she won't be truly happy, which means I won't be truly happy. Sometimes that requires me taking the "man of the house" role and sometimes that requires me compromising and being patient and diplomatic. If that makes me a pussy, so be it. I'm a happy pussy (most of the time).

Resolute is correct, no need to be so hard on yourself. The incentives for previous sales tells me something already. I strongly encourage you not to panic about this, it happens more than you realize. You mentioned the other speakers. For one, most if not all of them were probably nervous as well. I speak in front of groups all the time and feel sick to my stomach almost every time. People don't know that because I fake it. Explain to your manager that you gave a student a great opportunity to speak on a subject she is learning about.

Best of luck to you!!!!

I like the idea of allowing the postings but with the trigger warnings. The internet is filled with both sides. Woman claiming size is a big deal and woman claiming size doesn't matter, or doesn't matter much. But as has been mentioned, mainstream society has made it generally acceptable to joke about them or those who have them. IMO, that is what is so hurtful. Those who are or feel they are "small" in that department, feel like the butt of everyone's joke and it's humiliating. If people joke or ridicule about someone's weight, while assholes will defend it, many people will come out to defend the person or people. Tell a joke about a woman's flat breasts, you'll get the same reaction. Yet, tell a joke about a man's small penis, and the overwhelming reaction is laughter or ignoring it. Nobody seems to jump up to defend those with small penis. It's probably because those of us who suffer from it are hiding it. Take this example: A group of people, a mix of friends and strangers, are talking at a social event (reception). One of the people tells a humiliating joke about women with small breasts. One of the people in the group has very small breasts. Chances are that woman, or someone in that group, many a bunch of people, would say something to let that person know the joke is not acceptable. Take that same example and replace "women with small breasts" with "men with small penises" and almost every time everyone in the group with laugh. Even the person who has a small penis and in incredibly offended will more than likely fake laugh so they don't "out" themselves as having a small penis. In all 46 years of my life, I have yet to hear a person say anything about a small penis joke being offensive. Fact is, until a majority of society is willing to stand up against people who ridicule small penises, the jokes will continue and so will the shaming. I wish I could say, "I'm strong enough to be a leader for that cause" but I am not. I am one of those who pretends to laugh and awkwardly take a drink.

It is different for sure. But I'm not your usual cat so it works for me.

I do public speaking frequently, but have immediate family who are incredibly shy and are literally frightened by it so I have some experience helping them. Lots of people struggle with public speaking so you are not alone at all. I have a couple of suggestions. First, I would mention to your manager that speaking in front of people is difficult for you, but you are going to do the best you can. I say mention, because try to make it a comment in casual conversation. What you are trying to tell him is that public speaking is difficult for you, but you are willing to do it and will do the best you can. As a manager, he should appreciate that you are not asking to get out of it and are willing to do something you don't like for the job. Plus, it will give him more realistic expectations. Second, practice, practice, practice, and more practice. If you know what you are suppose to say, practice in front of a mirror a lot. The more prepared you are, the more comfortable you will be. Believe me, I know this works. If you are simply answering questions, try and predict what questions might come up and practice answering them. Third, find a relaxing technique that works for you. One example I use is to take long deep breaths, it will literally slow your heart rate and help you calm down. Some people fake yawn, as it tends to naturally calm you down. Some people find an object in the room (a poster on the wall, a door knob, etc) to look at when they feel too nervous so they don't have to look at people's faces. Finding an object just above people's heads is a good way to make it look like you are looking at the audience without actually looking at them. A different one that works really well for me is to try and tell myself I like being nervous. Sounds weird, but it really works for me. When I start getting really nervous, I literally force myself to smile and tell myself that I'm glad I'm nervous because that means I'm about to do something I care about and that I will remember. I try and convince myself I like being nervous. The feeling still sucks, but for some reason, telling myself I like it makes me feel better. Best of luck. everyone is a little different so just find what works best for you.

Roger, I believe you are correct. I guess the point I was trying to make was that my penis can't give her as much pleasure add a thicker penis, all things equal. I know she loves me so we build our own sexual satisfaction by other means, including intercourse. I just wish I could give her everything so I do beat myself up because my penis isn't bigger.

I have some similarities to your history and while no two people are the same and our situations I'm sure have many differences, I think my history is close. I met my current wife 6 years ago, when I was 40. I am slightly under 5" long, but significantly below normal in girth. Very narrow! Which unfortunately does seem to matter. I am somewhat successful with my career and have stayed in good shape. But until I met my current wife, I felt incredibly insufficient because of my small penis. It was an issue with my two other previous relationships, including my first wife of many years. Sex in that relationship was not good, but we stayed together for kids. Long story short, I met, dated and married my current wife with the same penis, yet our sexual compatibility is very good. I am still too small to satisfy her with my penis. However, what she gets off on most, is not the sex, it's being desired. So the ways that I talk to her, touch her, and lust after her literally gets her close to orgasm. Add organ and hands and its even better. Fact is, I can't please her with my penis like most men can. I crave a bigger penis beyond what's imaginable because I want to give her everything. But I just can't. With that said, I feel fortunate to have my wife and I know there are others like her out there. In the last two years, we have played outside the "traditional" relationship. I will be the first to warn, it's not for everyone and would never push for others to do it. I just mention that for full disclosure. I posted this not to say I am fully satisfied or my life is wonderful, but rather to point out there are many paths we can travel and we never know what the future holds. When I was 30, nobody, and I mean nobody, could have convinced me that in my 40's, I would find a new wife, be happily married, and with an active sex life. I don't know what the future holds. I may be 50, broken hearted and alone. Or I may be 50, married and happier than ever. Maybe somewhere in between. Who knows.