Ak0067

When i was 15 or younger I used to have fantasies of being a grand theft auto character a image of me replacing the main character in the game and when i see a good show series or when i saw prison break i fantasized about being the main character in the shows and felt like playing real life fantasy and i sometimes fantasize about the violent scenes to but now i feel bad for those violent scenes is this normal or not.

I got a groinal tingling then erection to someone kissing a baby i checked the groinal then thought im a pedophile. Prior to this my sexual drive was low as i had a lot of anxiety for the past year and half not sure. I had a lot of thoughts but i dont enjoy the erections or feel as anxious as i dis before which makes me think i am a pedophile for having low sex drive unless if i think of something and erections happen less. But the groinals and thoughts told i am one or repressing sexual feelings for children. Im not sure. I would not live happy if i am one not sure how i would life. I have been scared to be around or did not want to touch a kid to prevent any possible sexual feelings not sure