Malachy Friel

I'm seeing my counselor today so I will definitely do that. He is also registered in CBT and ACT therapy but I'm not sure if that would be able to control my disorder. I also went off meds cold turkey and am now aware that some of what I was feeling was Risperidone withdrwal. I will give the meds a chance until I am on the right dosage and balanced the go from there. Thanks IrmaJean

I've also heard untreated bipolar disorder damages the brain which only adds more concern.

Thank you those are very helpful articles but they don't make me feel so great about my situation. I do feel I am most creative in my manic states. Medication does not seem best for me in the short term and as that first article described the short term could be years instead of weeks?? I also experience insomnia, light visual hallucinations, and ringing in the ears (supposedly all bipolar symptoms in my case). I really cannot function in my depressive states and insomnia is starting to steal my passion and creativity in itself. Do patients actually find their creativity reviving after that short of time?

Hey guys my names Malachy and I'm getting into the medication process but have a fistful of doubts. I'm slowly being put onto lemictal with my psychiatrist having a guess of me being around 200mg by the time I'm done. I'm sure a very popular conversation on this site, I have fear for my creativity. As an aspiring writer it means the world to me. I started on 25mg and got fed up with the slightest lack of creativity and trouble getting thoughts into spoken words, so I dropped it yesterday even though I did see slight benefits. I would also say I'm paranoid. One day off medication and I went from extremely sad, feeling fine, and furious multiple times within a very short span. Today I am back on the same dosage as it didn't seem like something I can live with. Weirdest part was I knew exactly what was happening but still went through the cycle. After my psychiatrist hears that I'm sure the goal dosage will rise. I know that I didn't give my medication a chance to balance or even get to the right dosage but I hate changing who I am and I don't know what to do. Is pushing through smart? Any advice would be very helpful.