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Thank you all so much for your answers. I have an appointment scheduled with my psychiatrist tomorrow, so we will discuss this matter and I will try as hard as i can to find a solution to this. Thank you again, hope you are doing well Kiki

Thank you very much LaLa! i will try to bring it up again to my psychiatrist, so that she can maybe point out to me other possible medication or treatments!

Hello everyone, I'm here today to ask you if you know of any other option except for antidepressants to make depression better. I've tryed a lot of different antidepressants over the last four years, but all of them, when they really started to have the desired effect, made me behave in a strange way, meaning that i couldn't sleep cause i had too much energy, i was euphoric, i couldn't concentrate on anything for too long, i talked really fast, almost without a connection between the topics i was talking about. This as lead both me and my doctor to believe that antidepressants are not for me. I do fall into periods of depression, though, (usually short ones, from 3 days to a week or two) where i cannot seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel, and in those periods i am plagued by suicidal ideation or attempts and self-injurious behavior (which are the two things that concern me the most). I don't want to go through another one of those bad moods again. Does anybody suffer from this same problem? How have you dealt with it? Thank you in advance to anyone who will answer me! Kiki

thank you all!

hey LaLa, yeah, i'd like to leave it to chance when I'll talk about my experiences (mostly because I don't know where to start).... Though if you've got any questions, I'd be more than happy to answer them Hope you're having a nice day. Kiki

Hello everyone, I've been here a while ago cause i was redirected to this forum for its "Urgent need" thread, but later I haven't been really active in here (sorry about that). I hope to be more useful in the future, and be able to help others, maybe through my experience (as limited and messed up as it is), and to get help if I ever need it again. Thank you to all the people who have read and answered to my previous topic. i really appreciate the help this community can give to its members hope to read more from all of you soon Kiki

My self destructive tendencies are kinda weird. i think i started because i had no better way to express my emotions, something i did whenever i was angry. Right now, they are still a way to deal with emotions that are too intense, but they have also become like "emotion intensifiers". for example, if i'm happy and i do act on this urges, it is because i want to feel more happy. if i do it when i'm sad, it's because i want to be happy again. last night, though, it seemed like the only way to express my feeling of unwellness, my confusion and frustration over the fact that i can't manage to have logical emotional responses. thanks again for answering me, i hope you're having a nice day!

Hello LaLa, First of all i would like to thank you for taking the time to reply to my post and for being very kind in doing so. Regarding your questions, yes, i do believe that most of the time i can live my life somewhat successfully, and with this i mean that i can manage to keep a job and a few close relationships, but, for instance, lately i cannot seem to be able to concentrate on my studies, and the time i spend at home is either spent sleeping or jumping from one task to another. My hospitalization was due to a series of unsuccessful suicide attempts, but i was the one who decided to go to the hospital and was there advised to stay for a couple of days. Yes, I am currently medicated, and i doubt that that could be the cause for the mood swings, cause i've been on those meds for almost a year now and they usually manage to help me be somewhat stable (they are aripiprazole and alprazolam). I am in therapy with a psychiatrist and a psychologist, but the healthcare of my country doesn't cover the expenses for a psychotherapist (and as of right now i can't afford to go to a private one). I've been self-harming for more than 10 years now, but in the last two months i was able to stop. i hope that what i tried to explain is clear, cause since the health system differs from country to country, i'm aware that it can get pretty confusing... Thanks again for your help and the resources! i really appreciate them

I don’t know what’s happening to me. One minute I’ll be laughing and happy, the next I just want to scream and throw stuff, and since I can’t do either, my brain keeps telling me that I should hurt myself. I’ve talked with my psychiatrist about this, but she doesn’t seem concerned about it cause I can keep functioning just fine, and anyway, I won’t be able to get in touch with her until Monday. Further info: I’m diagnosed with personality disorder, and I’ve recently been hospitalized. Thanks in advance