I-hate-usernames

well not sure what to say excuse my typing and grammar I can't fix it. I got tired of being forced or thrown out of every forum known to man grammar, typing etc,and I guess I suck all around socially because my wife is the only one who sticks around long 15 years and I haven't had to even chain her in the basement to keep her lmao but forums, emails, real life all dissappear fast. anyway I have gifts not disorders lets get that right challenges and obstacles, but labels well let's say that I never knew that a person could have so many problems at once I thought adhd or bipolar nope I'm adhd, bipolar, borderline, ptsd, traumatic brain injury due to a stroke I just found out that I had and didn't know I thought I was just clumsy always been dizziness etc didn't notice that it was severe until the neurologist checked me then I have benzo brain damage from 10 plus years on lorazapan that's part of the grammar problem I have always had crappie typing etc now I can't remember exactly what goes where and when a day can seem like a week so I annoy doctors and people because I think more time has passed etc date day to much to list luckily I can still safely drive and do most normal crap it's just the little things but there getting worse. I also have a ton of physical health problems fibromyalgia, chronic pain, chronic fatigue, to much damage from years of overdoing it do to ptsd overdrive etc I tend to be void of emotions feelings dead just angry etc my counselor and wife have been able to get me to feel more but it's in waves followed by back to the void until something sets off the next wave im here because im bored and a glutton for punishment and I can't remember if I have been thrown out of this one before