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Hi Irmajean I lost my job a month ago and I am gutted about it. I have outbursts of anger, upset and all the other emotions that go on when losing something. I find myself not able to tell people how I am feeling deep down about it. I have urges of wanting to call them and tell them Im ready to come back to work now. That I will do my best this time round but then reality kicks in ...............

hi guys. hope u r all well. Not been aaround alot. Had loads going on. Alot of shit if honest but just wanted to come back and say hi and to see how u guys r doing x

Hi lala Thank you for your replies and support. The last few days I have not been to good but hopefully will pick up again soon. I will def try and speak/write to a therapist soon. Hope your ok take care

Look; you were able to write us about your problem. Was it so difficult? You could write it to a therapist as well. I'm sure you can't describe any details, but the only sentence would be enought at the beginning. Something like: "I've been abused but I'm unable to communicate about it, even with you [my therapsit]." L. This was very hard for me to write and this will prob be the only time I will write about unless I can find the courage to write it down for a therapist which could be a good idea. My concern is that by having to tell someone about it will later mean I will have to go into detail. I NEVER want to talk about it in detail and it will feel like I have to live it again and I really dont think I could do that. Its very painful living each day as I really want to tell someone so that I can get my life back again but then I cant as really cant live it again and so frightened of having to. I really dont know how much more I can take. Life is so hard and painful.

hi lala I was in therapy for over a year and was still unable to talk about it. As I couldnt speak about the real issue it made me angry, I hated myself and I hated the fact I could not trust anyone to tell them what had happened and how I felt. Because of this I started to self harm, get drunk each night, was aggestive towards people, took many over doses. got in trouble with the police and much more. My whole live was out of control I lost everything. I dont think I will ever be able to talk about what happened and I have leant now to block it out but I have not had a boyfriend since it hapened. I ahve tried to the way I went about it was wrong but I really thought it would help me through this. I got totally drunk 1 night (to the point I could not stand or speak) and slept with someone. I did this a few times thinking if I need to get over this and need to get some control back. It didnt work and I felt worst. So the only way I have leant to deal with this is by blocking it out but to never trust anyone to get close to me again. I dont even like it when it is just me and another male in one room together. I find life very hard but am learning how to cope with things each day. Thank u so much for ur advice hope ur ok. Take care

i did see a therapist but couldnt tell her i really did try but couldnt bring myself to tell her as I would not be able to deal with another response like how my mate did. I have learnt a way of dealing with it and I have it under control as much as I can. It is not the correct way but I have control and power over it so at the moment I feel this is ok. I hope u can find a better way of coping with things.

Hi I would just like to say that if u choose to tell some1 then choose who u tell carefully. I was sexually abused by my flat mate. I told my best friend and I was just going crazy and needed to tel some1 for help. She said that I prob deserved it as if I was not off my head on drugs and drink then it prob would not have happened. She said I only had myself to blame. I then started thinking she was right and wanted to hurt myself so badly that I started to cut myself. The cutting got worst and my drinking got worst. To this day I have not told any1 else and this is the 1s time I have sent it as a message. I just want u 2 be very careful who u tell. Take care