My daughter is currently getting the help she needs. But ah if you want to know more details, Allan, just send a PM about it. My doctor upped my medication. I have no earthly idea if its working or not. I do know I'm keeping my head together and getting things done that need to be done. I also know the supreme confusion is just getting out of hand in my own head. I feel as if I'm running on auto pilot. Somebody asked "Why does it matter if you cause these issues or not?" in regards to my daughter's RAD. The answer... Because IF I caused these issues, the I need to know so I can correct such behaviors and/or take other avenues to get her better care then apparently I can provide. And that would go for my other children as well. IF that is the case and I caused these issues for her, then I need to be taken out of the picture as a direct care provider. Wither I like it or not!!! It is what ever is best for my children is what needs to be done regardless on how I feel about it! Bottom line. Any other Questions?? My memory is not as bad as it would seem as of late. I make sure I write things down a LOT. I will be getting a recorder for all kinds of situations. I sick of people saying that I don't remember! If I don't then it will be proven, and if I do they can go straight to hell. On a side note: the process in which I think really sucks. anybody else starting to realize or have already realized this with themselves????