crisberube

I know I have already posted a thread here again but things are changing. I really do not know how I am feeling. I cant stand to sit in my skin. I just want to quit everything and isolate in my room. I think about who I can call to get help and cant seem to find anyone that will listen. My friends do not want to hear it because it brings them down. I then think about just calling a crisis hotline to talk but I really dont know what to talk about. I am not in crisis just really really lost in my depression. I am not sucidial but I dont want to be like this anymore. I try to use my DBT skills, read the BigBook of AA, Journal and do other things that will keep my mind busy but I just cant get my mind busy. I cry for no reason. I have a bad attitude, have no patients for anyone or any situation. I just dont know where to turn. Its going on two weeks and im sick of it. I wish i could take a magic pill and be better forever. I need help but dont know what to do to get it!