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My current medication regiment doesn't seem to be doing all that it should. Currently taking lithium and abilify for bipolar disorder. I know I need a combination of meds, in the past lithium has worked, but this is my first time taking abilify with it. I continue to feel more depressed and just want to sleep all day. Not sure if its the abilify or the lithium or just bad combination. Anyone have any experience with this?

Tried to stay positive today, took a bike ride and went swimming in the ocean, cold but refreshing. Thanks for your support last night.

Thank you for the serenity prayer, it has also been my mantra for a long time. Sometimes you just can't see through the haze to focus. I am doing better this morning, other than being tired as I didn't sleep much. going to try and focus on positive things today. just want to feel better, tired of the emotional roller coaster. i've had a lot of changes in my life recently and coping with them all is a struggle, but most of those changes i just need to accept and learn to live with, always the hardest part. sometimes i am just to hard on myself, and blame myself for others actions, i internalize this and just create more problems for myself. still working on changing the way i think.

Not hearing from my family...as hard as it was to reach out and let them know where i am at...just going to take my meds and hope tomorrow is better

Not doing well, just talked to crisis by phone, they want to send someone out to be assessed, can't deal with it, told them no.

The struggle seems to be all the time and I can't get myself out of this hole. I'm going to call my local crisis line as that seems to be the best option right now. Thank you for your support.

thats part of the problem, i have no support, my family has basically disowned me, guess its easier for them not to deal with me, than to deal with a crazy person.

Not doing well tonight. Feeling like the world is caving in on me. In a lot of emotional pain, head is not right. Sitting here drinking and wanting to hurt myself. Everything seems too much right now. Don't know what to do.

I know this an old post, but new to me Thanks for posting the mood rating scale. I rate my moods but sometimes find it hard to pick a number, the descriptions are helpful in determining exactly where I am and gives much more clarity. Is there any true 0, baseline, normal or what ever you want to call it, because I seem to never be there, its either up or down just depends on how severe.

Thank you IrmaJean, I am glad I found this site, I really need support from others who are going through or have been going through similar hard times. I've only been on for a few days, but already am feeling like I am not alone in this and am grateful for this site and all those that make it a positive place to visit and talk. I will put this as I feel like smiling today, despite the rain outside.

Thank you for your support and encouragement, it means a lot.

Hi LaLa3, Thank you for welcoming me, I was really glad I found this site and have spent some time reading other posts. I have been diagnosed for 17 years, been in and out of therapy many times, many psychiatrists over the years. I tend to go on and off medication. This time I have to stick with it, meds and therapy. I just started seeing my psychologist about 5 weeks ago, and I wasn't really stabilized enough to begin any true therapy. Am beginning to feel a bit more stabilized, but still feeling suicidal at times, so we talk about that a lot and why I feel that way, etc, trying to change thought patterns. With the trauma I just don't know where to begin, sometimes I am unsure if I will be able to allow myself to truly get the help I need. I keep going anyway, keep taking the meds, that's all i can for now.

Just recently released from a crisis stabilization unit. Spent 10 days there trying to get my mind back, I was severely depressed and suicidal, the world in itself had become to much. I have been diagnosed with Bipolar II and PTSD, and often times feel incurable. I have been taking my medications, seeing a psychologist, but am still feeling like I am losing the battle. I am no longer able to work due to mental illness and feel like I have lost everything and starting anew AGAIN. This isn't my first rodeo and probably won't be my last. As I get older I just feel I don't have the strength to fight anymore. I try to live one day at a time, and just focus on that, and try not to get too overwhelmed. Life is very difficult for me right now and am hoping I can find some support and understanding here.