I suffer with Bipolar type two, so the highs are less frequent. I always thought that I was unlucky for this, but now I am experiencing one of the most intense highs I've ever been on and because I hardly ever have them I don't know how to handle it! I hate myself, I'm doing and saying reckless things which hurt people, I'm hallucinating, hearing things, becoming severely delusional... I don't know what to do, please someone help? I've ended up spending my pitiful wages and some of my savings in two days. I'm scared I'm going to do something that will drastically hurt those around me and leave me picking up the pieces when I inevitably crash. I feel like I'm going to do something that will ruin my life...