LaLa Posted July 18, 2013 Report Share Posted July 18, 2013 Hello, Luna, how are you? I hope you had a safe ride home!! Will you share here some joy about visiting your daughter? How was the restaurant? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Luna- Posted July 21, 2013 Author Report Share Posted July 21, 2013 Joy. What's that...? It was nice to be in the company of my daughter, I love her very much. The restaurant was ok. I did some sewing on her machine the day she had to go back to work, with some fabric she had bought me, and made a quilt top. I was exhausted after the long sleepless overnight trip home and it took a few nights to get back to normal. But I am back down again, the only good time is when I can go to sleep and just escape it all. Thank heavens that comes around once a day. Tomorrow term starts again and I feel nervous about it. Being so alone is bad for me but I dread going out. I have to go and buy food today, it seems like a mountain. and I can't seem to pull myself together. Getting out of bed is such a hurdle. I know that is pathetic, And then I get depressed about that.I'm sorry I don't have better news. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Luna- Posted July 21, 2013 Author Report Share Posted July 21, 2013 So I went out and did the shopping. That is going to have to be the accomplishment for today. Sad, isn't it. But that is what the reality is. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
finding my way Posted July 21, 2013 Report Share Posted July 21, 2013 So do you still have to wait to see if this med is helping, or can you talk to your doctor soon? Are you able to talk to your therapist?I'm glad you were able to do the shopping, Lunabelle. Have you heard of this? For me it is relaxing... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Luna- Posted July 21, 2013 Author Report Share Posted July 21, 2013 Thanks for replying, finding.I have to wait, probably 2-3 weeks to see if the med will help. If not, I'll phone her and let her know as I am on a low dose. But I have to wait it out first. I saw my therapist 3 days ago. He keeps me going with his compassionate little pep talks, when I feel as I do.I have never seen that kind of braiding. The Japanese are SO good with art and craft, there always seems to be something new from them. Although it is probably the case that these things are traditional and we just haven't heard of them before.My daughter gave me a Moleskine notebook. I have decided to draw and paint in it. I have done two pages so far. I have bought so many art materials over the years that have been little used. So now I will use them.But always, just behind me, is the worry about not having work and what will happen to me as I get old. The shadow of the future on the present. It is really the umbrella worry. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
finding my way Posted July 21, 2013 Report Share Posted July 21, 2013 Is your university program toward the end of getting a job? If so, step by step might be the way to take it.I love art materials! Sometimes just looking at them gives me a brain shift. Right now the color of blooming flowers is what I get lost in.I hope this med gives you relief soon, Luna Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LaLa Posted July 22, 2013 Report Share Posted July 22, 2013 I'm sorry I don't have better news.I'm very glad you have got some good news . For instance, it was nice to be in the company of your daughter, you have done some fine activities you usually don't do, you came home safely, ...Drawing in the Moleskine notebook reminds me that last year, one bookstore (the one we prefer the most ) in our home city made a "competition/contest": People who have drawn something in their Moleskine notebook (they sell those in their bookstore) could take a photo of it and send it and then the best 3 pictures were chosen and the authors won a new Moleskine notebook. (That bookstore sometimes does such "contests", mainly for amateurs photographs.) It was interesting to view all those photos of pictures... I'd like to see yours ... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted July 23, 2013 Report Share Posted July 23, 2013 I hope being self-expressive with your art is soothing, Luna. Thinking of you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Luna- Posted July 24, 2013 Author Report Share Posted July 24, 2013 Wow, that is a beautiful picture, IJ, thanks. I think I will include this as a picture to copy.That sounds like a great competition, Lala. And you are right, all those positive things are true... OK, I will show you a few things, just don't think they are Art, ok?I am really just playing with my art materials. I can't paint or draw, but when we were small we didn't let that stop us. So I am not letting it stop me now. I am enjoying being back in play-school. Oh dear, these pictures have turned out so big!Gel pens, fineliner felt tips, and coloured pencils:Coloured pencils:Pastels:I still have a child's watercolour set and acrylic paints to play with. and another set of smaller pastels, these ones here are large playschool size and very stubby. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
finding my way Posted July 24, 2013 Report Share Posted July 24, 2013 Love these !!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LaLa Posted July 24, 2013 Report Share Posted July 24, 2013 Wow! Thank you for sharing!! One doesn't need to "know paint or draw in the classical sense" and still can make beautiful things. I mostly apreaciate your colour choices which always give the image a special ... how to call it in English?? "Vibration", enegry? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted July 25, 2013 Report Share Posted July 25, 2013 Thanks so much for sharing your art with us, Luna. I love the colors. Very beautiful. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LaLa Posted August 15, 2013 Report Share Posted August 15, 2013 How are you, Luna? I'm thinking of you... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Luna- Posted August 17, 2013 Author Report Share Posted August 17, 2013 Kind of you to ask, Lala. I am still not out of this depression, but I am slogging along, taking it day by day. My new AD was doubled a couple of days ago, so I am hoping to squeeze a bit of help from that. I have lost interest in the course I am studying, but I am still doing it, going to at least finish first year. I did well enough in the June exam to be able to afford to do less well in Nov and still pass. My outlook on life is still pretty dismal and I can't seem to get enthusiastic about anything.But I guess I am OK. Not thinking about ending it all anymore. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LaLa Posted February 14, 2014 Report Share Posted February 14, 2014 8 Things to Be Thankful For If You Have a Mental IllnessBy Natasha Tracyhttp://www.healthline.com/health-blogs/bipolar-bites/8-things-person-bipolar-be-thankful Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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