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I am a prisoner, not of steel or stone, but in a cell of living flesh and bone
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@LaLa Or did this one work? I'm confused.
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@Lala Thank you Lala. Did it work?
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I want to know how to reply to someone so they know I've replied, without quoting them. Thanks for your help. M.
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Hi Lala. How are you? I'm a lot like you, in that I think of things to say or write after I've finished a conversation. I hope the lady you spoke to, felt better after the conversation you had with her. Holding a conversation with someone might help, but i'm afraid of it too, Lala. Writing about my feelings is one thing, actually talking to someone about it is very scary, for me. I want change, but at the same time it scares me to death. I will think about it though. (By the way, I know you are not pushing me into anything - big hugs )
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Hi Lala. Thank you for the information. I finally did get around to doing the tests, and my Vitamin D isn't bad, but the doc said I should continue with the supplements he gave me: 50,000 IU, once every two weeks.
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I'm sorry to hear about your daughter. It must be hard for her and for her family. I wish her well.
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I'm glad to hear you are volunteering Lala. How do you like it? Do you think it is helping you?
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Hi Lala. I still live in SA. with my brother and his family. Did you read that they have allowed women to drive here now? I have seen only a couple of women driving though, since the ban was lifted - June 20th, I think. I know none of the women in my family are going to drive. I'm definitely not - even if I could. I would probably fail the driving test because of my poor eyesight. There are a lot of things going on here that are not good for those of us that are foreigners living here. We have to pay a monthly fee of $80 per person. I just managed to pay my fee a few months ago, and will have to pay again soon. That beside the resident permit fee that we pay which is around $300 every year. That's why I'm so glad I am going back to work. Still, even if I manage to pay the fee this year, I won't be able to next year. They double the amount per person every year. Don't apologise for asking me questions. I'm glad you do.
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Hello Beth. It's so nice to see you are still here. How are you? My boss messaged me today and asked me if I wanted to work during the vacation. I feel like new life has been given me! I have a reason to get up and do things. I will probably start in about two weeks, but I will be busy during that time getting everything done that I need to. I have to get tests done for my health, which I've been delaying. I have high cholesterol, vitamin D deficiency (something that almost all women here have because we don't go out enough, and when we do we are covered head to toe in black abayas), I also have hypothyrodism. So anyway I will do the tests for those things and then take them to the doctor. I already know my cholesterol is going to be very high because I have been eating anything and everything. I also have GERD and I still eat badly. It's like I'm trying to kill myself by not taking care of my health, but then I do the tests and go to the doc - I don't know why I bother, to be honest. Still, I have a purpose now, sort of.
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I really need to do physical activities Lala, I'm in my brain too much. There aren't any that I can do here though. I can't go walking with the heat the way it is. I wish I could go walking in some cool green woods. I have tried watching meditation videos, but I always give up on them after a few times. How are you doing?
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I know what you mean. It is hard to be happy when you have so much to worry about. I wish I had an answer to help you and me both.
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Me too! Hello Vic. How are you? It's very hot here too, and will only get hotter. The heat and humidity are always a problem for me - it drains me. We had a day where it reached 118 not so long ago!
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Hello Lala. It's nice to 'see' you again, too! I do watch videos, too many. I spend too much time online trying to prevent myself from thinking. I'm so tired, Lala. I want to let go to give in to stop being alive.
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Hello. I'm on vacation and my depression really worsens during this time. I have too much time to think and do nothing - it's driving me crazy. I want to bang my head against a wall because I don't know what to do with myself. It doesn't help that I have money problems at these times, because of course I don't have an income when I'm on vacation. I've tried to find work to help get me through until schools re-open, but haven't had any luck. I want to be busy I don't want to think.
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Hi everyone, it's Endlessnight. As usual I've forgotten my old password so I can't get into my old account. I'm posting under a new account, I think, that Beth had kindly made for me ages ago. Can someone help me get back into my old account, or should I stay with this one? Thanks.