Thanks, atleast I got some replies. But my problem is this, all my exes said the same thing, that I'm not worthy of being a man. I'm quite successful in my life. I have a good job, financially stable though I'm not the richest guy. I'm a hard worker etc... But to get attention to anyone is to first give a presentation of the self.
Also I understand that sex is not everything in life, but it's one of the important to maintain love. No matter how well I dress or talk when it's time covered by four walls and my partner feels that my erect penis does not exists, how can she even think that I'm a man to have relationship. I'm not in my 20s to think that I can proceed with some sort of treatment that may help me before I could confidently do things. I'm 30, I just have another 10 years to reach 40 which I consider to be a border line where I can think of my actualization.
After all this happened in my life I have a deep depression where I'm not even able to drive properly, confidentially speak to people, I always think of my dark side. I'm not happy with what I have. How can I lead a happy life like others when I don't possess the basic needs.
I'm sorry I think I'm going too much. But I really don't have anyone to speak with. I all alone in the world. All my friends are married and have children. Even my exes found their right person to be with. I don't know what to do. I accept my life is a waste, but I'm not a saint either to live for needy. I'm a person with heart and feelings. Yes, when I'm happy I can help others.
What can I do now, except to feel bad about the self.