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  1. 21 hours ago, Klingpeach 🍑 said:

    You’ve summarized my life obsolete, I couldn’t have written it any better. Like you I fear suicide only because I can’t imagine what could be worse besides constant, endless intense physical pain. Otherwise I’d have destroyed my body years ago. Also - it isn’t your fault who your parents are. People who say that or imply it are devils. I don’t care if I’m called a whiny bitch, they’re arrogant entitled bitches. I never asked for anything in my life good or bad and I don’t owe society shit, certainly not politeness.

    P.S. People claim I’m intelligent. I’m not. I never had a sex life or social life so I read lots of books. I’m actually quite dumb and mediocre. But I can tell you intelligence in a general way is absolutely worthless. I’d rather have a big dick and be street smart. Women want mediocre intellects like engineers once they’re ready for a beta male provider. Like baath said once they will just have a paramour on the side.

    Man I love your bluntness. I think you're very intelligent based on how you express yourself here. Hope the weekend is a good one mate.


  2. On 3/27/2019 at 6:02 AM, LaLa said:

     May I ask what have been your ambitions?

    More than anything I wanted to be a father and husband. That dream began at a very early age. Career wise I was never really clear on what I wanted. All I knew was I wanted a small family and do whatever it took to maintain a happy home. That dream is all but dead now.

     

    On 3/27/2019 at 6:02 AM, LaLa said:

    May I ask why you consider it so important for your wellbeing? What is it that you miss, in practice?

    I guess intelligence is just one of those things that are better to have than not.  It's no fun walking around feeling like an idiot and it makes for better job and mate prospects. 

    I noticed at a very early age that women place high value on intelligence when it comes to choosing a long term mate. I was aware even then that I was not particularly very bright compared to my peers. I struggled academically and socially so I began distancing myself with the idea that I would work on my intelligence, and once comfortable with my cognitive abilities, return to mingle again. I never got to the point of being comfortable with my thinking abilities and so over time I've concluded that I'm simply not suitable for a mate. I don't want to burden anyone with my foolishness. What woman wants a dumb man to marry and start a family with, and what child would be proud to have a dull father? It's best and fair that I remove myself from the mating game.

     

    On 3/27/2019 at 6:02 AM, LaLa said:

    Can you tell what makes you "non-self-confident"?

    •Lack of intelligence.

    •Lack of education.

    •No charm.

    •Small penis and I'm a short man.

    On 3/27/2019 at 6:02 AM, LaLa said:

    BTW; you do have some kind of friends: Us here!!

    I really appreciate that.

     

    On 3/27/2019 at 6:02 AM, LaLa said:

    Sorry to pose so many questions, 

    It's ok. I don't mind the questions. It's just that you're so kind and positive I wish I had better/more positive responses. I appreciate your efforts.


  3. 38 minutes ago, Victimorthecrime said:

    Hope things turn around Obsolete. I know what you mean about life. It's weird, sometimes you have to hope things get better and sometimes you have to accept how they are. Making that call is not always easy.  

    Vic mate I hope all is well with you. Yeah life can get rough but nobody said it would be easy. Some people manage to make it work despite the worst of situations. I don't know Mate, Perhaps this world is just not for me.


  4. 5 hours ago, jazz said:

    Sorry you are having a tough time Obsolete and feel this way. The world needs you 

     

    This genuinly made me smile. Thanks. I don't believe the world needs me at all but your comment put a smile on my face.


  5. 14 hours ago, LaLa said:

     

    Could you, for now, try to write more about how you feel, to vent? Could you, perhaps, even try to search for some other reasons to stay alive than just the fear of hell? Are there, for instance, some people (or pets?) important for you who would miss you? Are there some things that you can still enjoy, despite the negative aspects of your life? Have you already tried all the possible therapies? ...

    Take care! I hope you'll stay with us... 

    Hi Lala.

    I don't share much when I write because I struggle to formulate my thoughts into words perhaps because I have a weak command of the English language so I usually just keep it simple.

    How do I feel? Useless to be honest. I've failed at this thing called life and I simply do not see myself getting out of the mess I find myself in. I'm an idiot, not educated, incapable of critical/deep thought. I have no confidence whatsoever. You know, that manly presence. That self assuredness now called big dick energy, I don't have it. It doesn't help that I'm not packing down there either.

    I have no friends, no love life, have lost interest in everything I ever cared about. I have no purpose at all and as much as this may have me sounding like a teenager, I hate my life, I hate myself, I hate that I exist.

    So no I genuinly cannot think of a single reason to remain alive. I do have family (parents and a sibling) but I've never thought of that as a hindrance. I'm a dissapointmen to them anyway. Sure a tear or two may be shed but life goes on eventually. I have no wife o children of my own so no worries there.

    I have not tried therapy as I regard it as useless. No offence to anyone currently in therapy, knows someone who is in therapy or is a therapist themself, but I don't get why anyone would pay money just to talk to someone, it just doesn't make sense to me. Perhaps a silly sentiment to have given the situation I find myself in but it's honestly the way I feel about it. 

    I have tried self improvement. I've worked on my weight. I've even  purchased books on picking up women but it just ends up seeming futile to me. I end up feeling like I've missed the boat. I'm not young anymore and so any efforts feel useless.

    I'll stop here because I'm starting to feel like a whinny little teenager. I appreciate your comment Lala. Take great care. I'm sorry if you feel your attempt at helping is wasted as I shared nothing positive in my reply. All I can say is thank you for trying to help.


  6. I know my world officially ended once I measured. At the underwhelming size of just 11cm (4.2 inches) I couldn't believe it. The numbers on the tape must be wrong. What kind of measuring tape is this anyway? Can't be. I measured over and over and over again until it dawned on me. I have a small dick. I can't begin to tell you how much that bit of information fucked me up and I wasn't even sexually active at that point. I don't recall where i got the idea from but i figured if i lost weight my monster would grow. By how much? I didn't care. Anything is better than 11 fucking centimetres, so I got to work.

     

    During the process I obsessively measured. Every single night I'd go to the bathroom and measure and every night I'd be dissapointed. Eventually at my lightest weight of 87kg,  another tonn if bricks hit me hard. That shit won't grow no matter what you do. Unbearable mental anguish insued. I hated life and myself. I also started checking men's bulges out (and honestly I still do to this day just not as obsessively as I used to) and started visiting the smalldickproblems subreddit. Ultimately that shit fucked me up good.

     

    How's my life today at 31? Well all the bitterness and anger has left me rather dead inside. My first thoughts upon touching it to rub one out are about the size of it. It fucking pisses me off, but sometimes I laugh at how pathetic it feels. I still think about what I'm missing out on but the feelings aren't as intense as they once were, one user CNL describes this feeling a heck of a lot better than I ever could in a thread on here. I did seek the the services of an escort just to get it out of the way but the experience was so bad that I'm in no rush to do it again. Basically my sex life died before it even began.


  7. Men are no better than women. Men will take any opportunity to one up another and small dick jokes are one of many ways they'll do that. I've heard plenty disparaging comments about small dicks from dudes, two of them I called friends.

    But whatever you feel is for you to deal with. If you have a small cock, you, your opinion on sex and your feelings pretty much don't matter. 


  8. 5 hours ago, YOTH said:

    He ok, still screaming/screeching for attention but just not as much. He started walking at 10 months and now at 11 months has mastered it, so lots of running around after him. We're all pretty tired and cranky from lack of decent sleep, but otherwise ok. I'm glad you're happy in your new flat, sounds nice. I'm on the verge of doing something substantial, I can feel it. But what will it be? Who knows? Tune in next week...😂

    Haha. He sounds like a lot of work. I'm sure you're loving family life though. 

    I wish for a family of my own. I've always wanted to be the father that my dad never was. Eh, maybe one day when/if I feel ready. 

    I will stay tuned indeed. Keep well.


  9. 7 hours ago, IrmaJean said:

    Hi Obsolete. I'm glad you like your new place. That has to feel good. I hope you continue to walk along a healing path. Thanks for checking in and sharing. :)

    Thank you very much Irma. It really does feel good and encouraging. I'm looking forward to more victories on this journey and will remain in touch. This place  and the lovely members here supported me during my darkest days and I can't thank you guys enough. This place has a special place in my heart. Sorry if that sounds cheesy but I really do appreciate the support.

    Take care.

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