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  1. Hi William. I can't imagine how tough it is for someone your age today with all the social media. When I was in high school it was still limited to Myspace and crappy, single-page HTML websites. But kids still had ways to make you feel like you were worthless or didn't matter. Apps like snapchat transform ignoring people into a form of bullying. Society is a jungle. You have to bray like a jackass or screech like a monkey to be heard. It's not much consolation, but the people you consider friends now are not really your friends. They're just people who are in your life...sometimes directly, sometimes peripherally. In a few years, they will literally disappear and new people will enter your life. Maybe some will be your friends. Most won't. That's just life. I never had "real" friends. I'm not even sure such a thing exists. Human relationships are contractually determined through mutual self-interest. Therefore, if you desire "friendship", you must bring something to the table, so to speak. As a quiet person (and I speak from experience), very few individuals will exert the effort to include you in anything. Especially males. I haven't celebrated my birthday in over 15 years. I get a text message or a couple of phone calls from family, but that's it. I haven't had a "cake" birthday since I was younger than you are. You have your entire life ahead of you though. I would highly recommend if you suffer from social anxiety (I do) to ask your parents to take you to a doctor and get some medication for it. Social anxiety can cripple you. If you don't suffer from it, then I would advise you to figure out the things you enjoy doing most, and focus your social life around that. Again - mutual self-interest will provide the basis for friendship, at least in my experience. Many guys your age are into sports. I never was, but that might be an option.
  2. There is a global infrastructure dedicated to driving vulnerable people of any extraction completely, irretrievably batshit insane and/or to suicide. Its only purpose is the pleasure derived from accomplishment.
  3. No @jazz, it distinguishes between two types of “subordinated” masculinities - a “dominant” type and “gigolo” type.
  4. Extremely interesting essay, supports much of what is discussed on this forum. The modern phenomena of cuckoldry is rooted in this. It also demonstrates the true nature of the political theater current year...not "left versus right" but neo-liberalism versus populism (of whatever variety) - "hegemonic" masculinity being the flabby, materialistic bourgeoisie sentimentalism dominant since the 18th century, and the two subordinated masculinities encompassing the left/right popular, practical, carnal understandings of the relations between the sexes. Phallicism will be the new religion. http://www.njas.helsinki.fi/pdf-files/vol18num4/groes-green.pdf
  5. I noticed that suicide rates of males and females seem to be inversely related across several countries based on this data: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_countries_by_suicide_rate#endnote_data_updated_2018 I played with it in Excel and used the rate rankings pseudo-normalized by number of countries in each region to plot the difference in rank between male and female suicide rates across all 184 countries. A positive value indicates a low male ranking and comparatively high female ranking, while negative indicates the opposite. In some countries they are roughly equal. Using the broad regional categories, this would seem to correlate with the cultural dominance of "patriarchal" and "matriarchal" social structures of the countries comprising these regions. Also interestingly, Russia, that stoic beacon of global conservatism and family values in 2019, ranks highest in male suicide rate globally. In general, the countries with the highest male suicide rates are loosely centered in Eastern Europe, and the inverse relationship between male versus female rates is significant in these countries.
  6. Every time I read “the art of being right” I laugh at how acrid the commentary is on human nature.
  7. Turn The Tables A brilliant move is the retorsio argumenti, or turning of the tables, by which your opponent's argument is turned against himself. He declares, for instance, "So-and-so is a child, you must make allowance for him". You retort, "Just because he is a child, I must correct him; otherwise he will persist in his bad habits". Me: I’m angry at this person for making rude, insulting, cruel comments about my masculinity and sexual prowess. Society: Man up, ignore it, they’re just being childish. He’s acting childish. Also society: Think of thee children! The poor, innocent blameless children! “From the mouth of babes thou hears perfect praise”!!
  8. The photo with the model was just to show the type of apparel I’m talking about. Most advertisements for them don’t depict large bulges. As for the news article, I zeroed in on it immediately, however I’m obsessed so probably focused on it more. But his penis is clearly visible. Like most of the stuff I post, it’s anecdotal examples to support a wider theme. What I’m saying here is that this fashion is designed to be form fitting and revealing, but in a way that if you bring it up you’re immediately accused of being gay or gutter minded. When I was in high school, everything for guys was baggy - baggy shirts, baggy jeans, baggy shorts. Now it’s all skin tight skinny shit that is meant to show every bulge, vein, muscle or lack thereof. Men have become nothing more than breeder stallions. What repulses me more though is that my specific problems are rooted in the fact that I’m envious and jealous that I can’t be one.
  9. I hate these fucking things more than codpieces. They were designed for exactly one purpose - to show a man’s genitals. They’re even worse than those skin tight blue jeans men used to wear in the 60’s and 70’s because the dudes who like to wear these habitually go commando in them so you can see everything swinging and flopping around. Shit like this used to be worn only by white trash, chavs, ghetto thugs, etc. but now it’s the favorite attire of college students. It’s all about animality. Everything is relative except flesh. Morals, ethics, justice, right/wrong, philosophy is all subordinate and relative to the flesh. I was reading world news just now and clicked this story from Al Jazeera about Hong Kong protests, and what’s the first thing that greets my eye front and center: https://www.aljazeera.com/amp/news/2019/07/hong-kong-masked-mob-190722183213248.html A masked thug in thug attire with a clear, distinct dick bulge. Ideology, intent, context, story doesn’t matter. It’s a fit, young male in form fitting clothes displaying masculinity. I checked the writer - a woman. Claiming this can’t be overt and is therefore ridiculous is a red herring by people addicted to the superstition of “rationalism” attempting to mitigate or ignore the influence of the subconscious in our day-day behavior. I guarantee you whoever took that photo did so for the reasons I mentioned. It’s an eye grabber and click bait. The future is phallicism. It is the religion of the future. Take that however you want. Feminism and “toxic masculinity” will be merged in the final synthesis into phallicism. They are two sides of the exact same coin and there is no room for anyone like me. If you identify with me there’s no room for anyone like you. The mgtow, manoephere is the toxic masculinity side of the coin and is as far from sympathetic to our plight as feminists are. There is no difference between the nazi SS lebensborn stud farms and the hypergamous female sexual liberation of today. It’s genetic hegemony which means a tyranny of phenotypes. No male alive would voluntarily accept a smaller dick. Not one. Anyone, but most especially men, who claims penis size doesn’t enter into this equation needs their jaw caved in with a brick.
  10. Beth it wouldn’t help and I wouldn’t know how. I have extreme social anxiety. I’m 32 and the textbook definition of failure. The only people I’d be comfortable around are other failures, and if that’s the glue of friendship I don’t see how it can provide anything but negative validation. I’m dead flesh that reacts to an electric prod. There is nothing inside to express. Anyone that has achieved any form of self actualization or success I envy and don’t like being around them because it’s just a negative affirmation.
  11. Yes Jazz you are right. I’ve come to the conclusion that the internet is an immense, labyrinthine social control and social engineering construct. A vast psychological operation. Controlled and managed by scattered gatekeepers. I truly think this was the purpose of some recent internet recruitment operations utilizing puzzles (cicada) - recruit suitable acolytes for initiation as these gatekeepers. One intended consequence is to drive vulnerable people insane and even to violence if possible. These trolls remind me of certain boys I went to school with who were always going to the website rotten.com and loved South Park. They don’t fit contemporary political labels and believe in nothing except their unbelief. Bots come into play to a greater sophistication than we’re led to believe I think.
  12. The problem Beth is that I have no real life human contact outside of work. Therefore I spend an unhealthy amount of time on the internet. Internet culture is the worst of human nature on full display. Being hypersensitive, I can’t deal with it. It’s just another swing of the pendulum. If I can survive summer it’ll swing back and another year will pass and I’ll be one year older and staring at the same flat ocean in the same cramped boat complaint about the same things. Until the kraken finally catches up and eats me since I’m too lily livered to just jump as I e proven to myself.
  13. Nothing makes sense to me. Every day is a waking neurotic nightmare.
  14. There are 3 sizes: hung, small, and micro. Hung guys are desired for no strings attached (nsa) fucking of every variety. Everyone else is left to deal with emotional drama.
  15. Explicit photos are not allowed on the forum...it’s only a matter of time before a moderator gets involved. But before it’s deleted, that’s an average/normal dick for “relationships”. It’s normal for a sexual beta. It’s normal for a “provider”. It’s normal for making babies. It’s small for the hookup scene and casual sex encounters.
  16. There are some important distinctions to unpack in this which I’m not comfortable discussing openly for privacy reasons and also because it generates a lot of emotional discussion. I promised the moderators a few years ago I wouldn’t cause any more problems here. If this has any interest to you or you have questions PM me, otherwise I’m probably going to take a hiatus from here. Take care.
  17. @divorced for the most part I am indifferent to politics. I’m too jaded and cynical to believe any of it makes much difference. I don’t really care who’s running the carnival as long as I have personal access to quiet and solitude. When I was younger, I was full of a lot of rage, and I was a firm advocate of eugenics and euthanasia centers like in soylent green. To an extent I still am, not so much out of anger, but out of mercy for people like me who are destined for nothing but loserdom in the world. Some people don’t belong in this life and it’s apparent from grade school. It would be a mercy to kill them in the womb. However, this brings up another point I’ve spoken about, which is namely the necessity of losers for the winners. The two compliment each other and the polarity requires both terms. You see this on display with “conservatives” who will scream about abortion then ridicule and relentlessly make fun of the less fortunate.
  18. Yes I have and that’s a good way of putting it. I don’t know. Economics is second only to team sports in the list of things I find excruciatingly boring. Socialism only interests me to the extent of questions regarding private property and individual rights because I generally can’t stand people or dealing with the public. Marxism-Leninism is a hydra that employs dialectical thinking so a straightforward analysis is difficult in any event and impossible in an online forum discussion. I didn’t intend to open this line of conversation although I probably should have foreseen it. I merely made the comment as hyperbole to make a point.
  19. Yes ^^^. It’s why a prostitute would be unfulfilling to me. I’ve discussed this with others in the past. The fact that I would have to pay to get it destroys any urge to have sex. It’s a validation that you can’t get sex normally so you have to pay for it.
  20. I’m sorry that happened to you. I’m not a jock and was never part of the culture but I was forced to be in PE class and then saw it on full display in college. So what did you think of that status system in the context of your experiences? Also, how did the “big shot” come to be established that way? For many men like myself this status system is an ineradicable source of inferiority and self hatred that never goes away even years beyond high school.
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