Hello, thanks for answering! I already feel a bit better.
I had some support from my classmates before, but I think that they started to think that I am faking this (like my brother does, but he's just a child) just to have attention.
My family did bring me to psycologists, but the more I went there, the more I felt scared and sad. They had to bring me to the hospital too, sometimes. And that made me really, really anxious. I don't like seeing so many people around me. So they decided to help me when I'm at home, and it kinda did help, but not enough to make me stop being anxious and scared.
The things that keep me awake mostly are what I think. I think what would happen if I would just leave, if everyone would be happy or not. I think about my bullies and why they do bully me, if I did anything wrong to them. I think about all the stuff I need to do when I wake up, like school, house chores, drawing commissions, animations, homeworks and stuff like that. I think about why does this happen to me, to my mind. They keep me awake until I literally collapse for 30 minutes, then wake up again for school, which starts at 8:00 am.
I don't have a doctor who can help me about my sleeping and eating concerns yet, since my parents are spending money, because my mom has a problem on her shoulder and she can't move well anymore. But I guess that, after her surgery, I will have a doctor who will help me.
Also yes, I am able to keep myself from posting my art online, but there is this friend of mine online who likes to see my art, so, to keep her happy, I try my best and post it to make her smile.
I don't have art classes, sadly. I learned drawing all by myself, and I'm still improving. I'm thinking to go in an art school when I grow up. But yet, my drawings are not that much good like everyone expects.
For taking care of myself... Well, I do that in rare cases. Only when I need to go to important places with my parents or when I go to my classmates' birthday. Or else, I don't really like to take care of myself. I don't like perfume nor nail polish, nor dresses or skirts. They make me really uncomfortable. The only way I can feel comfortable with myself is when I wear my favourite hoodie.
Thanks again for answering, it feels so good to get all of this out of my chest.