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  1. I am 2" soft and just under 4" hard.
  2. There has been strong hints that she wants to date me. I am not 100% certain, but some of the things she says or the way she acts around me leads me to believe that she would like to date if I wasn't with my current gf. But I get what your are saying, my size is the only thing holding me back and it sucks.
  3. I am really having a tough time with this and I thought i should reach out for advice. So I have been dating my current gf for a little over a year. She knows about my small size and it has never been an issue for her. I am grateful that she didn't mind that I am small and at first, I was so happy to have finally found someone. To be completely honest, she is a great girl, but there are many things that I feel like I am not completely attracted to her. Apart of me feels like I am settling and it's not a good feeling to have. Now I feel like I am being the shallow one even though I have dated so many shallow girls that made fun of my size. This sucks and I feel horrible. Apart of me feels like I can do better, but then I remind myself that I am under 3 inches and I can't probably do better. And that is on my mind a lot. So to continue on. A girl that I have had a crush on for a really long time, we recently started to talk. I am not cheating on my gf and I will never do that. But apart of me keeps thinking that I have a great choice with this girl if I were to break up with my gf and pursue this girl. But then I think that this girl might not like my size. The heart break of ending my current relationship to get into another one where she may have an issue with my size will break me. But at the same time, why can't I go after the girl of my dreams? Why can't I have what every other guy that has a normal size penis get? Why can't I be that happy? Sorry I am probably rambling on now. I just don't know what to do. Thank you all for your time.
  4. Thank you for the great information. I guess I have some more reading to do. I have thought about confronting the ones that have been saying it and I have analyzed a million different ways to bring it up, but it is so hard to find the courage to do so. I want them to know how wrong it is for them to say these things and how much it really hurts me when they joke around. I feel like I am generally not a sensitive person, but this topic is such a hot button for me. I just wished they would live a day or two in my shoes with this issue. I wish they would experience the sexual humiliation that I have had to experience when trying to date a girl. I wish they could feel how I feel as an outsider to many people. And lastly I wish they could feel how I feel when the dark days get so dark that I have exhausted all of my motivation and self worth. I honestly dont wish what I have been through upon anyone, but if they could just get a small taste of my life, then maybe they would feel horrible for the things they say. What also hurts the most is that these people are supposed to be my friends. These are the people that are supposed to support me. These are the people that should be there for me when I am feeling this way. Why would someone have to ruin these types of friendships? I sometimes forget who I am pissed off the most at during this situation. I dont know if I am more pissed at my crazy ex for telling them or my friends for continuing to make fun of me. Sometimes I am pissed off at myself for even allowing things to get to this point. For once I felt like I was apart of the "popular" kids or the "cool" crowd. I hate to use those labels, but when you had a childhood like mine, you would understand. When I was with my friends, I felt invisible and I was loving life. And now I am so disgusted with them that I feel like I will never be able to experience those relationships anymore. Sorry! I am rambling on again. If at most I get some relief by venting to you all...I thank you all for a kind ear.
  5. Hello Everyone, This is my first time posting to this site. To give you a little background information, I am 30 years old and I am quite small. I am about 3.5 inches and it is something that has caused a lot of issues with me emotionally and socially. I have had 2 girlfriends in the past and the sex has never been a highlight of either one of those relationships. Anyways, to get back to my current issues... About 6 months ago I found out that my crazy ex from a couple years ago told my closest friends that I am tiny. I know for a fact that she told them that I was small, but I do not know the details of what she said or exactly how she said it. I know she has some pictures of it to and I hope that she wasn't that mean to share those, but I wouldn't put it past her (she was the biggest mistake of my life). So about 6 months ago I started noticing some of my friends making small penis jokes indirectly around me or felt like some have been talking behind my back about it. It also seemed like I was being laughed at by my friends when I would pursue or talk to a girl when out or while dating. Now my group of friends consists of girls, guys, some married, and some single. The comments that have been said or things I have over heard has been extremely hurtful. They have been so hurtful that I even ran, physically ran away, from them while out at a party once. I have spent many nights after crying about the fact that I am small and now that my friends know my deepest secret that I spent almost 30 years hiding. The hardest part about all of this is that I have spent so many years being the stand up guy that I thought I was. I have always been a great friend to all of them and I have totally felt like complete crap after this. I feel like my self worth has been diminished because of my friends. I feel like they consider me a freak and they don't even want to hang out with me sometimes because of this. I have spent many dark days and nights wondering how to fix this and I cant think of anyway. I honestly hate myself because I have a small penis and I cant stand that my friends know that I am tiny. It has affected a lot of my life that every time I hang out with them, all I can think about is what they might be thinking about my size. If my friends laugh when I show up, I assume they are talking about my size. I once even think they told a girl I was talking to that I was tiny because she stopped talking to me instantly when one of my friends (who is a girl) talked with her. To put it simply, my confidence is shot and I am hurt that my friends know. Has anyone had this happen to them? I cant think of anyway to fix this and I really do not know what to do. Sorry if I rambled on...this is how my head seems to work lately.
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