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LostBoy

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    Life sucks, then you die.

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  1. Planning. I'm not good at it.

    Thanks @Victimorthecrime. I suppose so. I really do not want to change companies because I do enjoy the company I work for and the people in it, overall, are good people. I've heard so many nightmares about other companies. I'm also not keen on "starting over" with a new company. That means that I would have to start over with the connections, politics, networking, systems, and processes. I've been with my current company for most of my career so I'm afraid that I'm too old of a dog to learn new tricks. Right now I'm venting a little but in the end nothing has happened yet. The writing is on the wall but as of right this moment nothing has physically changed so I'm going to go through the steps of preparing for the worst but I'll just wait and see what happens.
  2. Planning. I'm not good at it.

    The bad thing about this is I think I'm one of the bastards. A company is simply made up of people who are all fighting and scraping to stay relevant enough not to lose the security that they have. This is true for me, for my boss who is a SVP, for his boss who is a president, and for the board of directors who he reports to. We're all just trying to exist and the higher you go the less likely you are to survive long term. Also, from what I see, the higher you go the more you hours per day you work. My boss seems to work about 15 hours a day from what I can tell.
  3. Planning. I'm not good at it.

    I guess my dream job would be growing pot and distilling liquor. I've "been there done that" with the white trash so it's off my bucket list now.
  4. Planning. I'm not good at it.

    It can be an "express train" for sure. I have been very fortunate in the fact that my company has done a great job of supporting hard working employees over the years but it's still a crap shoot at times. I've eliminated my job but they will not just put me in another one. I have to interview just like anyone else would for a new job. On top of that, they have been on a kick here lately to "hire for potential" in order to increase diversity so even if I am the most qualified for the job I may not get it due to the diversity agenda that is currently taking place.
  5. Planning. I'm not good at it.

    Hi @Victimorthecrime, well I guess I shouldn't have made that comment about stress because I'm now sitting at home stressed out about work and life in general. Without going into a lot of details, I basically reorganized myself out of a job this week. I then presented it to senior management, and they liked what they saw. So what does this mean? It basically means I am now looking for a new position in my company because mine will likely not exist in a few months. For anyone out there that thinks being in middle management is a cushy job, you could not be more wrong. It is always high stress and you are expected to make decisions, for the shareholders, that could impact you personally. I normally enjoy the chaos and high activity very much but when I'm personally impacted it really gets to me. This is the second time, in my career, that I have eliminated my job by design. Fortunately for me, my company will go to great efforts to promote me and relocate me when this happens. The opportunity that I will likely have will be located in the north so I have already started researching communities to live in and looking at houses. While I do not have anything personally against the north, I do not like cold weather or grey skies so this will be a major life change for me after living on the gulf coast for 10 years and in the south for my entire life. So, what am I doing this weekend? House hunting, community hunting, looking at commute times and traffic flows, comparing cost of living, and beginning to clean up and purge junk from my house in an effort to minimize the work that has to take place later. Next week I will be updating my resume, cleaning up personal stuff in my office, designing a transition and reorganization plan and continuing to take care of personal things at home in order to prepare. Once I get the "green light" I will be commuting between here and my new location for several months as I prepare to buy/sell houses and transition into the new role. This is also stressful, based on my past experiences, because there just doesn't feel like there is enough hours in the day due to the heavy work load both personally and professionally. c'est la vie
  6. me....

    \m/@_@\m/ Mental wounds not healiing Who and what's to blame I'm going off the rails on a crazy train... ... @ba51th, sorry for derailing your thread. I'll behave now...promise.
  7. me....

    There's probably less of a chance of getting a disease from a bat than there is a mouse but both can definitely carry some nasty stuff for sure.
  8. me....

    Bats aren't as bad as they seem. Where I grew up there were lots of them and we enjoyed sitting in the back yard at dusk and watching them come out to hunt. They would fly low and we've had them in the house before but they don't want to be in there any more than we don't want them in there. They are tricky to get out though so congrats on successfully taking care of that and it didn't seem to take too long based on the timing of your posts!
  9. Planning. I'm not good at it.

    There's no sense being stressed in your time off. I didn't do much Saturday, worked a little today but I'm now enjoying a bourbon and watching stupid comedy on tv.
  10. Planning. I'm not good at it.

    It went well. I have another than I need to finish up this weekend but I'll probably wait to do that sometime Sunday night with a bourbon in my hand. It's perfectly OK not to get anything done. Sometimes we need to just rest and relax. There's always tomorrow and unless it's something critical then there is no reason it can't wait. I'm doing some stuff around the house but I'm not hurting myself by any means. I'll work a little while then get on the computer to shop or look stuff up and then I'll do a little more around the house. Life is stressful enough during the week so i am a firm believer in low stress weekends!
  11. Planning. I'm not good at it.

    Good Morning @Victimorthecrime, I slept in this morning (8:00am) and have plans to get a lot done today. Yesterday was all about taxes and other appointments and today is about stuff around the house. It's supposed to rain here today so that could limit outside activities but the temps are nice right now.
  12. It sounds like you sought medical support already but I would recommend continuing down that path. Between the psychological and medical support, one of the two should be able to help or at least clearly identify the problem. I masturbated a lot as a teen and can't imagine what it would be like without that release. I wish you the very best in this tough journey.
  13. Dealing with Perfectionism and Self-Hatred *Triggering*

    Hello @Klingsor_the_Capon, I guess I didn't realize this concerning your background. We seem to have very similar pasts yet I sense we approach life very differently. Don't take what I'm saying wrong, I'm not indicating that one approach is "more correct" than the other. My main issue in life is my penis size and the insecurities and depression that comes with being a freak of nature. Outside of that issue, I lead a fairly fulfilling life. I sense that your pains run much deeper and cover a wider spectrum of issues. I wish the best for you and hope that you can pursue a career and hobbies that you enjoy.
  14. Beer

    Alcohol is my only true crutch remaining because I no longer do drugs, I gave up smoking many years ago, I seldom gamble anymore, and my porn/sex addiction is under control. Don't get me wrong, I've considered stopping drinking and I have cut down a lot but a few glasses of bourbon on Friday alway signifies the beginning of the weekend and a the last glass of bourbon on Sunday signifies the end. Unless I have a business dinner I do not drink Monday through Thursdays. I know alcohol is not "good" for me but it does make me feel better by relieving stress and worry.
  15. Planning. I'm not good at it.

    My weekend is shaping up to be quite typical. I'm normally up at 0500 during the week so on weekends I'll sleep in if possible. Today it was 0900. I have some stuff to do around the house today and I'll likely spend most of tomorrow on my computer working in preparation for next week. It seems to be a cycle for me with little changes.
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