I am going to be a junior in highschool in 2 months. On most days I am happy and passionate about my dreams. But some days, the world crashes down on me.
As for my friend, I fear she may suffer from schizophrenia. She sees 'things' no one else does and no matter how much I try to believe her, it is a little too far fetched. Sometimes I feel like she exaggerates things to the point of it being one huge fantasy.
Other than that, both of us are polar opposites. She is the cool, popular and fit one whereas I am the loner nerd who could do with losing a bit of weight. I am extremely shy and barely go out of the house whereas she goes out to parties or to shop almost everyday.
There are many signs of this relationship being unhealthy, but I find it easier to ignore those signs.
- She hates unfit people. Like to the point where she wants them to die if they can't stay fit.
- She has a huge web of friends who I honestly don't mix with at all.
- She can sometimes be extremely self-centered.
But, she is also one of the most supportive people in my life. She always pushes me to be the best and she relies on me as I rely on her. I am one of the only people she shows her 'true' self to and no matter how much I try, I can never imagine myself leaving her.
When it comes to hobbies and interests, I have a lot. I have 3 amazing dogs, a wonderful cabinet of books and an iPod with heavenly music.
Those are some of the things that keep me grounded in my darkest moments.
Regardless of that, I still need to seek help because even though I get by, I never want myself to take the step that could end it all.
Lastly, thank you so much for your support. You literally made my day