I usually don't like to share my problems with strangers but I am feeling like my husband's family brings the worst in me, especially his mother.
First of all, I apologize for my grammar. I was raised in Europe and English is my 2nd language..
I married my husband 11 years ago. Our marriage was a bit rocky, lots of problems and unnecessary drama but we sort things out and moved on. I guess his mother didn't. First of all, I always been very respectful and polite to my mil and tried to please her so she will like me.
It all started when we got married.. I should probably never add her to our Facebook because the moment she found out we got married she started drama with my husband's cousin about how I'm goldigger and I will end up leaving him for a rich man. (11 years later i'm still happily married), she also asked my husband's first love to add him on facebook for not particular reason just to stir stuff up. I am not against his exes or anything but I didn't understand reasoning behind it. My husband asked her to stop causing drama. She emailed me apologizing for everything and how God always forgives his children. Yes, she is extremely religious.
I let it go as I wanted her to like me. I toally understand her fear and even she called me a goldigger I was understanding. There are people who do this but not me. My husband received his orders to go back to the states so he wanted to go back to His family and officially introduce me to them. When we met, she was nice to me. Played a victim card very well, made me feel bad about how my husband treated her as a mother. She is on her second marriage, my father in law divorced her about 20 years ago but she still mentioned to me how her ex husband cheated on her etc etc. I felt bad for her, I did. She made me hate my fil, because how he "treated" her. We stayed there maybe 2 weeks. Moved to new house. Everything was great. I got pregnant and had my baby. She was very happy for us.
We found out that hubby had to go to Cali for a 5 weeks to get his certification. His mother invited us to stay with her for those 5 weeks. We just had a baby, I thought she would help me take care of her and It will give her some time with granddaughter. Oh how wrong I was. We got there and everything was okay until hubby left for training. Everything I was doing was wrong, I should cover myself up because people can see my breast. ( i was breastfeeding, breast grows when you are pregnant, also it was too hot, it was 100 or so where she lives with no A/C in her house) no I wasn't running naked, I wore dresses and tank tops.She called me a whore because I talked to a security officer who checked my id when we went on post, my mother was a whore for raising me.I was shooshed and called stupid. She said she will take me downtown and show me where prostitutes are because I look like them. She hit my 6 months for spilling baby food on the floor. For 5 weeks I was constantly called a whore because some guys smiled at me or talked to me. She bullied me to the point I refused to eat and I got sick. She refused to buy my child formula because she wouldn't go to Wal-Mart when I was sick because i suppposed to brestfeed my kid. I wasnt eating enough to produce milk. I ended up in the ER and begging my husband to come back because I was afraid she might hurt my child. I asked doctor to let me go home since I couldn't bare leaving my 6 months old with her. It was the worst 5 weeks of my life. Yet, she still pretended like nothing happened. She warned my husband to be careful because I'll cheat on him.
I haven't talk to her since then, we talked maybe once and she became toxic again and I just refuse to talk to her. You see because of her I start greying and having panic attacks. . She always has been very negative towards me, through Facebook comments or just when we were on the phone. I decided that removing her from my life is the best option but unfortunately I can't get rid of her. She still calls my husband and talks to him.When I hear her on the phone I start to get angry and bitter and become resentful towards my husband. She texted my husband that she never knew how we are because I deleted her for making a comment. I deleted her because I feel like she brings lots of negative feelings in me and I just want to have a peacfull marriage.and life
. If it comes to her graundaughter, she is only grandma on Facebook just for the show. She doesn't call or talk to her. When hubby calls her she barely talks to her my kid doesn't even care for her.
. So my questions are am I wrong for wanting her to be out of our life? How do I approach this whole situation? How can I heal from all of this? How do I stop all those negative feelings when hubby is on the phone with her?