Tina Posted December 14, 2016 Report Share Posted December 14, 2016 I do not want to live anymore. There is just... there is nothing good in me. And I know that is what everyone thinks, but it is true. I am good at absolutely nothing in the world and.... I am no ever going to kill myself, but for some reason, I tried to (non-fatally) overdose on seratronin. Foolish, but I desperately wanted to not go to school Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Victimorthecrime Posted December 14, 2016 Report Share Posted December 14, 2016 Hey Tina, sorry to hear this news. You sound young, hang in there, a lot can change. Try to talk to someone you respect. Is there anything you enjoy doing? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Klingsor Posted December 14, 2016 Report Share Posted December 14, 2016 Tina I understand all too well feelings of worthlessness. I've had them all my life. Do as victim said and try to get help ASAP. Don't fall into the trap of thinking you can fix it all by yourself or postponing. Decades of your life can vanish in an instant just by putting things off and trying to fix them all yourself. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted December 15, 2016 Report Share Posted December 15, 2016 I'm sorry you're feeling down, Tina. I hope that you will reach out for help. Did something specific happen at school that caused you distress? Thinking of you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tina Posted December 15, 2016 Author Report Share Posted December 15, 2016 15 hours ago, Victimorthecrime said: Hey Tina, sorry to hear this news. You sound young, hang in there, a lot can change. Try to talk to someone you respect. Is there anything you enjoy doing? In the end? Nothing, because I am not good at anything. I am not creative and I do not enjoy exercise much. There is not that I can do. 14 hours ago, Pax said: Tina I understand all too well feelings of worthlessness. I've had them all my life. Do as victim said and try to get help ASAP. Don't fall into the trap of thinking you can fix it all by yourself or postponing. Decades of your life can vanish in an instant just by putting things off and trying to fix them all yourself. I have both psychologist and psychiatrist but so far it hasn´t helped at all. I am stupid, usless and this will never change. The only advice I have heard os to change my negative thoughts, but why should I if they are true? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Klingsor Posted December 15, 2016 Report Share Posted December 15, 2016 Are you on any medication for depression? I resisted medication all my life, but looking back I was stupid not to have even given it a chance. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tina Posted December 15, 2016 Author Report Share Posted December 15, 2016 49 minutes ago, Pax said: Are you on any medication for depression? I resisted medication all my life, but looking back I was stupid not to have even given it a chance. I am, seratronin-based medication, I was not diagnosed with depression, just anxiety disorders Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted December 16, 2016 Report Share Posted December 16, 2016 18 hours ago, Tina said: In the end? Nothing, because I am not good at anything. I am not creative and I do not enjoy exercise much. There is not that I can do. I have both psychologist and psychiatrist but so far it hasn´t helped at all. I am stupid, usless and this will never change. The only advice I have heard os to change my negative thoughts, but why should I if they are true? Tina, your inner critic is being very loud. I do hear that a part of you feels this way right now. What do you think your needs are at this time? Maybe it helps some to not speak in absolutes? For instance you might say I feel this will never change rather than this will never change. That way you leave the door open to different possibilities. Have you ever read about cognitive distortions? http://psychcentral.com/lib/15-common-cognitive-distortions/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tina Posted December 17, 2016 Author Report Share Posted December 17, 2016 On 16/12/2016 at 9:57 AM, IrmaJean said: Tina, your inner critic is being very loud. I do hear that a part of you feels this way right now. What do you think your needs are at this time? Maybe it helps some to not speak in absolutes? For instance you might say I feel this will never change rather than this will never change. That way you leave the door open to different possibilities. Have you ever read about cognitive distortions? http://psychcentral.com/lib/15-common-cognitive-distortions/ Is it really so easy? I am ot sure... I am awful at driving and probably wont pass the exams, maturita is soon. Everything I pick up I fail at. It just hurts. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Victimorthecrime Posted December 17, 2016 Report Share Posted December 17, 2016 Sorry this is happening to you Tina. I remember you from earlier posts and you sound like a nice person. East Slovakia right? There are no quick fixes but I believe that for each of us it's true that somewhere inside you there is an answer. I am going through a rough time myself so I concede that it is not easy. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted December 18, 2016 Report Share Posted December 18, 2016 No, it's not easy...it's difficult and challenging work for sure. I do think it's possible to make improvements, though. I'm sorry for your sadness and pain. I hope you find your way on your path, Tina. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TooOld4This Posted December 25, 2016 Report Share Posted December 25, 2016 On 12/17/2016 at 11:16 AM, Tina said: Is it really so easy? I am ot sure... I am awful at driving and probably wont pass the exams, maturita is soon. Everything I pick up I fail at. It just hurts. Happy holidays, Tina. I don't know how you celebrate in Slovakia, but i hope there is joy for you with your family or with friends your age. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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