A Big Step for Me Today

[BellaMeilan]

I am happy for you @PDXsUnHungAndUnsungHero But as I always say just take your time and what is meant to be will be. 😎😎

[PDXsUnHungAndUnsungHero]

2 hours ago, BellaMeilan said:

I am happy for you @PDXsUnHungAndUnsungHero But as I always say just take your time and what is meant to be will be. 😎😎

Thank you Bella. It wouldn't have been possible if it wasn't for you!

[YOTH]

Yeh, I fucking love MDMA, it's my drug of choice. Make yourself a playlist of chill out music and enjoy yourself. Just so you know, it does effect your dick. I usually find it difficult to get a hard on when taking molly, so just be aware of that, unless you have Viagra or something, then it's game on. Cocaine is worse for the shrivels but I have had the same thing happen multiple times with molly. Maybe fool around beforehand or something. 

Edit: And good luck, your positive attitude is infectious, it's been a welcome change in a lot of respects. Take it slow and be yourself, I hope this is the beginning of something good. Even if this girl isn't the one, you've found a system that could potentially weed out any time wasting ventures so you can just focus on the real thing ☮☮☮

[PDXsUnHungAndUnsungHero]

Thanks for the advice and support, YOTH, you are truly one of most upstanding members of this community and I appreciate hearing from you (on any subject) and especially this one.

8 hours ago, YOTH said:

Just so you know, it does effect your dick. I usually find it difficult to get a hard on when taking molly, so just be aware of that, unless you have Viagra or something, then it's game on

I don't know if you've ever heard me talk about my erection issues but my issues are literally the opposite of most guys. I get hard too fast (like 5 seconds) and cum too fast but then I am good to go again WITHIN THE MINUTE (like not even over exaggerating). I told the girl I would probably cum like 10 times our first night (and I'm not over exaggerating, especially if I hadn't masturbate a couple days). I am actually hoping you can mix alcohol and MDMA because I was going to try to have a little buzz on so that I could last longer and feel less anxious. So even if MDMA did make it harder for me to get harder, it would be a welcome thing in my case.

What would not be a welcome case is the well known fact (or it should be well known) that speed (all kinds: adderall, meth, xtc) does make your dick smaller (for however long you are high or what not). Why that is, I do not know. What I do know is that it sucks. That is the one thing that I am not glad for (in regards to doing MDMA and our incredible night).

8 hours ago, YOTH said:

Even if this girl isn't the one, you've found a system that could potentially weed out any time wasting ventures so you can just focus on the real thing ☮☮☮

Yep, I am not thinking this girl is "the one" (at least not yet). I'm not even getting my hopes up at any kind of relationship with her. Like, I don't even know what she thinks of us at this point or if she would be hurt if I left her for a different girl. I mean, I know she would be hurt if I ghosted her (as would I) and she has told me about a guy she met on the website we met on and how they were messaging eachother for a year and then he completely ghosted her (without a single word, let alone a reason why). I reassured her that I would never do that to her and that I would always be there to talk to. Yesterday I hadn't messaged her back for 4 or 5 hours and it was really touching to have her go "Where are you? " Usually I am the one who is waiting for a message back, ya know? And then after she wished me a good night at around 12:30 AM, I woke up this morning to see a message at 2:45 AM: "Are you awake by chance?" You guys, she is super sweet and I can't wait to shower her in love and affection. Honestly, that's all I am thinking about all of this. Two lonely insecure people sharing their love (that they have so much to give) even if just for a night.

Thanks again YOTH, you rock!

 

 

[YOTH]

Good for you, man. She sounds like the perfect girl. But again, I'm not sure why, MDMA does give you the mad shivvlins. But it'll be alright, I'm sure. You've got this in the bag, I can feel it. Keep us posted 😀👍👍👍

[PDXsUnHungAndUnsungHero]

Thanks YOTH, it's really nice to see that you have my back. I will most definitely keep you updated! I'm working out today for the 5th time in 6 days, and I think the extra confidence (not just from working out but from having a girl into me) is starting to lead to other positive things, such as nailing this interview on Wednesday and getting this kickass blackjack dealing gig where I will be making literally twice the money I make now (well I don't make anything right now because I don't have any hours lol but if I was).

So in about two months (see I gotta finish the class first, even though I already know how to deal most of the games, but they are super selective so I'm just happy I got in), I will be starting a job that will be paying me on par with like an elementary school teacher (I'll be making thereabouts $40-$50,000 a year, which is pretty crazy. But the point is, I will have money to spoil this girlie and whatever other girlies want some of THIS 4 INCH WONDER lol. It might not even be 4, like I said, that ruler just...just keeps itself one step ahead of me. I'll find it eventually (I don't even know if we have one actually lol).

[PDXsUnHungAndUnsungHero]

Alright guys, I've noticed I haven't even update this post with the good news. So this girl is mine! It's just...so amazing that I finally found the girl of my dreams, or at least the girl in that one dream I mentioned in either this post or the other one of mine. So someone PM'ed me "congratulations I saw that you and that girl hooked up beautifully" and I wrote him this and I thought I would share it here:

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Thanks man, I really appreciate that. "Hooked up beautifully" is an understatement but a really good one at that. We're like madly in love with eachother (but to be fair, I have never had anything like this (a romantic relationship) so it's not fair for me to say she's "the one" (at least not yet) but from what she has been telling me, I am indeed "the one" for her.) She has never been loved like I have loved her (and visa versa). All of her past boyfriends and flings were assholes who used her for her soft parts and her money. They wouldn't cuddle her, go down on her, or even fuck her with her shirt off (she has or had issues with her breasts because they had some work because of a tissue disease but I honestly can't tell most of the time).

She put herself through a lot of shit and got fucked by a lot of douchebags just because she wanted to be loved so badly. If I were a female, I could imagine myself doing the same thing (sadly). I have craved a romantic relationship with cuddles and blowjobs and creative sex for so long. I never thought it would actually happen though, especially when you factor in my crippling insecurities and my "4 inch wonder". To be loved like I have been over the last couple weeks has been so surreal. I expect to be awoken from this dream any second now. It's so awesome that we were able to find eachother. We are both kind, gentle, insecure humans with extra baggage (emotional and physical: we're both a little overweight), and we both have struggled with past drug addiction(s). We both can't stop thinking about eachother and are counting down the days, hours, and minutes until we can be in eachothers' arms once again (which has been on the weekends).

It sucks that we were unable to find eachother until now. We could have spared eachother of years of heartbreak, emotional pain, and loneliness. But it's so...like, I said when the new year started that 2018 was going to be special and she has just proven I was right about that. I can't wait to show her everything and to keep loving her and making her feel special. I am totally going to spoil her because she deserves it. She has taken a lonely and small dicked boy and made him feel like he has never felt before in his entire life: romantically loved and appreciated (as well as wanted physically which still blows my mind. I never thought anyone could love me that way). She has made me feel special (especially that physical sexual feeling, omg). And on top of all of that is the fact that she is so fucking beautiful. Sure, she might be a little chubbier than me at the moment (but she's still not "fat" by my definition, I would just call her curvy or busty, but I mean god damn just look at her face. She has the prettiest face I have ever seen (and I'm not just saying that). Her eyes make me hard just on their own.

Aghhh I can't wait to see her again tomorrow (and spend the weekend with her here at my grandpa's condo which I have to myself for the time being). We're going to cuddle, fool around, fuck, cuddle, visit friends, fool around, cuddle, fuck, I fucking love this girl man. She is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I am going to stay loyal to her for as long as we're together because I know she will do the same. She is too kind of a human being to cheat and she knows that she can't afford to lose me (because although I am not the hottest guy in the world, I am the best guy she will likely ever find and am the only guy that will treat her and love her the way that she deserves to be treated/loved). 

I fucking love this girl, man. I know, it's crazy, but it's true. Whether or not we'll stay in love and eventually move in together and marry is yet to be determined but all signs point to at least eventually advancing this relationship into the move-in phase.

[2thin2win]

So happy for you Unsung. She's beautiful in every way....and I always liked the chubby ones, never went for skinny girls. Anyways, I bet you guys are awesome together and it's just one more success story for the small guys! I do hope others read this and learn from it.

[Obsolete]

She looks beautiful. Glad you finally found your happiness mate.