1997Henry Posted March 31, 2018 Report Share Posted March 31, 2018 I FEEL SO DISAPPOINTED with myself. As I mentioned before, I was away from school for 2 months now. And worse, alone in a rental, no one to talk to. I thought loneliness helps my study, which I always expected in school. However, once I was really lonely as well as I am now, I felt nothing to do and seized by fears of everything. Subconsciously, I found a porn on Xvideo last night and masturbated ------this scenario happens all the time from my teenage. Once I feel lonely or anxious, I masturbate. How to live a life without masturbation or without the sense of guilt after masturbating? It never makes me well even at the moment of doing it. I wanna quit masturbation. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
1997Henry Posted March 31, 2018 Author Report Share Posted March 31, 2018 What's worse, I even bought a sexual toy last night. I am sick of myself now. What is the problem with me? Loneliness or the nature of pervert? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
YOTH Posted March 31, 2018 Report Share Posted March 31, 2018 This is one aspect of the forum I don't get, I love porn and a good wank every night. It's the one thing my body gives me for free. Although, I would say that there are certain Xvideos I've stopped visiting because they make me feel a bit seedy, but generally I see masturbation as the bodies natural way of relaxing itself. I can't go to sleep without doing it, it's like an anti depressant and a sleeping pill all in one. I think it's more important to give up the content that makes us feel bad rather than the act itself, but each to their own, we all deal with things differently. I just tend not to give myself a hard time over it (no pun). It's a human function that is there for a reason, but like anything it can become entangled with feeling of self worth, kind of like food and booze/drugs. Moderation had always been key for me. I have certain toys that I use when I have the house to myself, but why not? I've had all sorts of stuff, I just see it as a bit of fun. If I kill 100 people on a game it doesn't make me a killer, so why would I let porn define me permanently when it's just a bit of fun in the moment? To be fair, my tastes are quite tame. I like BBW BBC pawg stuff, so it's not exactly fringe porn, but I also enjoy a bit of gay stuff if the mood takes me, again, why not? No guilt, just good old masturbation. I know some guys are compulsive and go out looking for the real thing, but that isn't my bag. I hope you find some peace with it and quit if you feel guided to, but guilt is so useless, absolutely pointless. 1997Henry and LostBoy 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LostBoy Posted March 31, 2018 Report Share Posted March 31, 2018 When I was younger, I always felt guilty for masturbating. During my teenage years it was a never ending cycle of masturbation and self loathing mixed with guilt. As I got a little older (early 20's) the guilt subsided some but I would still go through episodes where when I watched something that I considered edgy (it was gay porn for me at that time) that it would make me feel horrible about myself. Now, I find myself masturbating much less than when I was younger (2-3x/day as a teen, 1-2x/day in my early 20's, 5x/week in my late 20's, and now I'm down to around 2x/week unless I'm traveling or alone). I also don't feel the same level of guilt as I did when I was younger. If masturbation is bothering you then you need to determine what about it makes you feel bad and try to address that piece. I think, as you get older, you will feel less guilty about doing it. YOTH 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
1997Henry Posted April 1, 2018 Author Report Share Posted April 1, 2018 On Sat Mar 31 2018 at 11:26 PM, LostBoy said: When I was younger, I always felt guilty for masturbating. During my teenage years it was a never ending cycle of masturbation and self loathing mixed with guilt. Then what's your masturbation for then? I usually masturbate for difficulty of falling in sleep. Once I did it, I felt better and slipped into dreams soon. On Sat Mar 31 2018 at 11:26 PM, LostBoy said: Now, I find myself masturbating much less than when I was younger (2-3x/day as a teen, 1-2x/day in my early 20's, 5x/week in my late 20's, and now I'm down to around 2x/week unless I'm traveling or alone). I also don't feel the same level of guilt as I did when I was younger. I have to admit that you were energetic in your younger years. I commit it usually 2-3 x/week. Never less but more. The guilt stems from the rumor that goodness of our body away with semen, which causes ugliness and distraction. I blame masturbation for my oily face and weak body. I hope I could be in your phase one day and I know I would get there. Today I bought a couple of bunnies to help ease my loneliness and see if I can quit. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LostBoy Posted April 1, 2018 Report Share Posted April 1, 2018 1 hour ago, 1997Henry said: Then what's your masturbation for then? When I was young it was always about sexual release/satisfaction. The guilt likely came from the frequency coupled with the fact that I grew up believing it was wrong...a "sin". I firmly believe that I was addicted to masturbation/sex. My sex drive was off the charts through my mid 20's. 1 hour ago, 1997Henry said: I blame masturbation for my oily face and weak body. I honestly use to blame masturbation for my small penis. I assumed God was punishing me for not only what went through my mind but the act of masturbating itself. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Joboo Posted May 4, 2018 Report Share Posted May 4, 2018 Often wondered if mastubating to young caused mine to be small. I wasn't ready but a friend told me about a older guy he watched jerk off. We knew nothing of ejacultation, we just showed each other our hard dicks and laugh. So he showed me what the did and at 11 or so I did it. It took what seemed forever to ejaculate. I almost stopped a couple of times thinking he had lied, but it did feel good. Then of course after some time it felt real good and it must have shot six feet over and over. I abstained as much as I could but it wasn't easy, I had guilt but in a year or so I probably never missed a day. I alway thought it stunted its growth since I activated the sperm to early in adolescence. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheDane Posted September 23, 2018 Report Share Posted September 23, 2018 Couldn't you guys look to your fathers to see if there was some hereditary link to having a small penis? Alas, I also started masturbating at 11 and I also have anxiety at the momemt and masturbate all the time.... and to add insult to injury I also have a small penis. I believe it is a depression/anxiety state where you seek joy in everyday's boredom by masturbating. I am however from ungodly Denmark where guilt towards God is not an issue. I should add that I am 35-years-old Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LaLa Posted September 27, 2018 Report Share Posted September 27, 2018 -> That's an excerpt, but the beginning is also worth listening to, for instance: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GoldenBoyX Posted October 12, 2018 Report Share Posted October 12, 2018 On 3/31/2018 at 11:26 AM, LostBoy said: When I was younger, I always felt guilty for masturbating. During my teenage years it was a never ending cycle of masturbation and self loathing mixed with guilt. As I got a little older (early 20's) the guilt subsided some but I would still go through episodes where when I watched something that I considered edgy (it was gay porn for me at that time) that it would make me feel horrible about myself. Now, I find myself masturbating much less than when I was younger (2-3x/day as a teen, 1-2x/day in my early 20's, 5x/week in my late 20's, and now I'm down to around 2x/week unless I'm traveling or alone). I also don't feel the same level of guilt as I did when I was younger. If masturbation is bothering you then you need to determine what about it makes you feel bad and try to address that piece. I think, as you get older, you will feel less guilty about doing it. I felt the same way about masturbating and I think Catholic school had a lot to do with it. They told us it was better to spill our seed into the belly of a whore than onto the ground. I felt super guilty and tried to stop so many times and I'd always fail and then feel that same loathing and guilt. It didn't help that I was super embarrassed by the things I was masturbating to and which I was letting get me hard, really embarrassing things. It doesn't bother me as much now but it still bothers me and I still think I do it too much. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GoldenBoyX Posted October 12, 2018 Report Share Posted October 12, 2018 On 4/1/2018 at 2:08 PM, LostBoy said: I blame masturbation for my oily face and weak body. I honestly use to blame masturbation for my small penis. I assumed God was punishing me for not only what went through my mind but the act of masturbating itself. Oh man both of these. So real. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GoldenBoyX Posted October 12, 2018 Report Share Posted October 12, 2018 On 9/23/2018 at 2:26 PM, TheDane said: Couldn't you guys look to your fathers to see if there was some hereditary link to having a small penis? That too. But that didn't help. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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