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Endlessnight Posted July 13, 2015 Author Report Share Posted July 13, 2015 What beautiful, majestic trees! Where is the last one, Lala? I know the one before last is a Dragon's Blood tree, from Socotra. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LaLa Posted July 13, 2015 Report Share Posted July 13, 2015 (edited) Oh yes, I enjoy trees, too...I'm sorry, I don't know where the pictures have been taken, I've found them "randomly", without description .Can you daydream about beautiful places? It might be a kind of remedy... (?)BTW, I've found this nice, a bit surprising, and hilarious video and thought perhaps you'll enjoy it, too:http://www.ted.com/t...ously_addictiveAnd here's something else "to daydream":http://www.ted.com/t..._untamed_nature Edited July 13, 2015 by LaLa I modified the post a bit Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted July 14, 2015 Report Share Posted July 14, 2015 Lovely photos, LaLa.M, maybe doing something self-connective might help? Sometimes I feel a deep longing too and I am able to soothe myself through self-expression. Do you think this could be helpful? Maybe write a poem?Thinking of you and sending love. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LaLa Posted July 22, 2015 Report Share Posted July 22, 2015 How are you, M.? Is it any better now, after Ramadan?Hugs,L. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LaLa Posted August 5, 2015 Report Share Posted August 5, 2015 Hi, M.,I've just heard some good news about S.A.: Women are now allowed to travel without male company or even permission! But the law passed in secret because politicians don't want citizens to know it. So perhaps you don't know it yet, either.http://www.arabnews.com/saudi-arabia/news/782906http://www.ibtimes.com/saudi-arabia-issue-new-travel-rules-women-official-says-regulations-line-advanced-1958025How are you doing, M.? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Endlessnight Posted September 14, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 14, 2015 Hello Lala. Thank you for the links. I hadn't known of them allowing women to travel alone. It is good news, but there will still be restrictions. Still, it's a step in the right direction.How are you Lala? I hope you and your family are well. I am okay. I seem to have made peace with my life and go on existing day to day. I have my ups and downs like everyone else on these boards has, but I think I'm okay. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Endlessnight Posted September 26, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 26, 2015 I'm struggling with my realisation of my own worthlessness and uselessness. Most of the time meds see to it that I don't feel much of anything really, but for the past few days I have been without any energy or will to do anything other than lie in bed. I force myself to get up and do some little thing just like hanging up my clothes and then I feel tired and lay down again. After typing this I'm probably going to flop down in bed again. I want to have a purpose to get up and live but recently I don't seem to have any. If it weren't for my niece and her baby I think I would be able to finally let go. I wish I could cry or scream, anything to let out the pressure i am feeling inside of me today but I am unable to. The meds won't let me. I want to scream. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted September 26, 2015 Report Share Posted September 26, 2015 sorry, m. i don't know what to say except that i definitely know what you mean by uselessness etc. (although i'm sure you're not as useless as i am; at least you have a job and....). i don't follow what your niece and her baby have to do with this though; i must've missed something, or just forgot. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest ChinaDoll Posted September 26, 2015 Report Share Posted September 26, 2015 I get what she means. My niece and my mother are my anchors to this world. Thinking about how sad they'd be with your loss just puts a hold on things.I dunno about you, Endlessnight, but I feel that though I see myself as useless and powerless to do anything for them, but you just have to be there for them. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted September 26, 2015 Report Share Posted September 26, 2015 i hope you both feel better. take care. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Endlessnight Posted September 26, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 26, 2015 I feel I'm going to explode unless I can get relief of this pain and pressure inside of me. I've bitten my arms just so I can feel something. I've slapped myself. I need help Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted September 26, 2015 Report Share Posted September 26, 2015 i wish i could help, m.i'm always here, and prepared to listen (and talk). Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest ChinaDoll Posted September 26, 2015 Report Share Posted September 26, 2015 When I feel like that, I exercise. It always helps. Either that or I lock myself somewhere and cry. I also come here and me my disgusting pitiful self. Lol.I hope tomorrow will be better for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Endlessnight Posted September 27, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 27, 2015 Hello Resolute and ChinaDoll. Thank you both for your kindness yesterday. After my last post I knew I had to get myself out of the house before I did something stupid. It took all my strength and will power to do it, but I did it. I needed to walk it off and the only places here to walk are the malls so that's where I went. I walked and walked and then sat down and had a coffee and a chocolate eclair . I felt better. I slept well last night.Today I'm feeling better. The bite marks on my arms are fading and not hurting anymore. I honestly don't know what happened to me yesterday. I've never bitten myself before or felt so close to doing something I might regret if I lived through it.Thank you both again. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted September 27, 2015 Report Share Posted September 27, 2015 i'm glad you're feeling better m. take care. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest ChinaDoll Posted September 27, 2015 Report Share Posted September 27, 2015 Im glad you feel better. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted October 7, 2015 Report Share Posted October 7, 2015 how are you doing these days, m? i haven't heard from you in a while. i hope everything's ok.best wishes. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Endlessnight Posted June 12, 2016 Author Report Share Posted June 12, 2016 Hello guys. Beth has been so kind as to help me get back  as Endlessnight!  Thank you for welcoming me back in the other persona. Beth, is there any way that you can delete the other thread please? Resolute, I understand if you don't want to explain your decisions. ((((hugs)))) I hope things work out for you. LaLa 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted June 12, 2016 Report Share Posted June 12, 2016 thanks, m. and welcome back again. ((((hugs)))) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted June 12, 2016 Report Share Posted June 12, 2016 Welcome back, M! I am always happy to help. I went ahead and deleted the other thread for you. Take gentle care of you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Small Posted June 14, 2016 Report Share Posted June 14, 2016 Beautiful trees Lala. I love the first picture of the path. It sort of awoke a brief but acute sense of adventure and regret in me, very melancholic indeed. LaLa 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Endlessnight Posted June 15, 2016 Author Report Share Posted June 15, 2016  Quote  Small Beautiful trees Lala. I love the first picture of the path. It sort of awoke a brief but acute sense of adventure and regret in me, very melancholic indeed.  Very well said. It's how the pictures make me feel. When I came back here to this thread and saw all the beautiful bursts of colours, of the trees, It made me smile, but sad too. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LaLa Posted June 16, 2016 Report Share Posted June 16, 2016 Â / Â Or perhaps some more photos, not trees this time? http://themetapicture.com/made-before-there-was-a-photoshop/ or also: Â Â Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted June 17, 2016 Report Share Posted June 17, 2016 M, are you able to grow anything there? I have been attempting to grow lotus plants recently and I find it very enjoyable. Maybe even a house plant could bring a bit of nature to you? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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