What the hell is this?

[Rouler]

Mi mind got hilarious.

And then, cutting and seeing my blood become fun and funny.

It became hilarious too.

And my mind said to do so, because It was fun.

Now it is not funny anymore.

My mind is not hilarious anymore.

I feel confused.

Have this ever happened to anyone here?

[finding my way]

My word for this kind of thing is dissociation. In a dissociated state, a person is not connected to what they are doing or who they are. It can be the result of trauma or other problems that are causing quite a bit of pain.

Are you ok, Rouler?

[Rouler]

My word for this kind of thing is dissociation. In a dissociated state, a person is not connected to what they are doing or who they are. It can be the result of trauma or other problems that are causing quite a bit of pain.

Are you ok, Rouler?

I dissociate all the time in different ways, but I cannot see why to self-harm was so fun/funny/hilarious. Actually, I didn't feel particulary dissociated when that happened. I was like....ecstatic.

I would have laugh doing it, it was like a happy idea.

Now it is a happy idea again...but I don't feel agitated. I am quiet. It is hilarious.

Oh...I know...yes...I am soooo happy...this is Nev!

I thought It was something wrong, but not! I was Nev once.

[Guest]

It happened to me to I would often times laugh while cutting. Then afterwards stare in awe at how deep I went and be happy about it all. I think it is like when someone gets a tattoo and it tickles instead of hurts so the person laughs...