m.allen Posted May 9, 2015 Report Share Posted May 9, 2015 Res,I'll respect your wishes and I won't try here to convince you to live, although the thought of you killing yourself troubles me greatly. I think there's a lot you can offer the world and a lot you can get out of it. (sorry, couldn't help it). In the short time I've interacted with you, you've gone out of your way to help me and I appreciate that immensely. the world needs smart, caring people and we'll be at a great loss if you decide to end your life. thanks Res for all you've helped me with. you'll be missed. I also hope to see you back here after the 20th, and I would be proud of you for walking to the edge and turning your back on itall the best and much love ken Ian 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted May 10, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 10, 2015 wow m, i don't know how to respond... i had no idea i was so great, lol.for what it's worth, i wish there was a way for me to not let you guys down. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted May 10, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 10, 2015 this is becoming difficult for me ken .i am resolute, but only when i think the odds are in my favor; i'm not resolute when i know the outcome won't be in my favor.i don't believe that a life without dignity is worth living, ever. "helping" others is nice, but it's not enough to make this hell bearable (for me at least).this godforsaken planet has nothing to offer me anymore. no one can help me ken; not you, not anyone else. can god help? sure. would he? never. why not? because that's not his style.i also don't wanna keep going back and forth to/from the edge. i'm tired of being god's pawn. no one makes a fool of me, not even god. that's what god does; dangles carrots in front of people and moves them around like puppets. well this puppet has had enough; i won't take anymore of god's crap.ken, i'm really not interested in tony robbins type philosophies. i only accept logical reasoning and evidence. all the evidence suggests that my already unbearable life will continue to decline until the day i die; which i assume would be in my 90s (unless i quit the cruel game). that's a lot of needless suffering.unfortunately ken, the reality of the matter is that no one has any answers; otherwise we would've seen them, or at least heard about them.i'm sorry for being so bleak, but i'm just telling it like it is; no sense fooling ourselves. take care my friend. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted May 10, 2015 Report Share Posted May 10, 2015 Res, if a good friend of yours had written this thread, how would you respond to and support your friend? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted May 11, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 11, 2015 i'm sorry i upset you ken. i'm also sorry you had to delete your posts, and i hadn't even read your last post yet . you shouldn't delete them ken; they are good posts, well thought out, compassionate, moving (maybe it's just me, but i can feel many of your posts sort of touching my soul), and even contain some humor. it saddens me when i see your empty posts. even though i might be at the point of no return, your posts still mean a lot to me, specially considering your terminal illness and how much effort it is for you to type these posts. i feel undeserving of your time and kindness.you're a very kind and caring person ken, and you deserve peace and happiness. please don't be sad/upset for me. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted May 11, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 11, 2015 @ small, i'm not sure i follow Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted May 11, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 11, 2015 Res, if a good friend of yours had written this thread, how would you respond to and support your friend?i'd tell him i completely understand, and i'm there if he needs to talk and such. i'd tell him that i don't blame him one bit for his decision, and i'm sure it's the right call (considering that he's smart and competent). needless to say, i'd tell him that i will surely miss him, but will probably not be far behind. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted May 11, 2015 Report Share Posted May 11, 2015 We're here for you, resolute.It's not just you...Wishing you healing and peace. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted May 11, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 11, 2015 thank you beth. i really hope ken isn't too upset with me. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted May 11, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 11, 2015 Haunt Klingsor when you're gonegoes without saying. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted May 11, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 11, 2015 ken, thanks mate. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted May 11, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 11, 2015 maybe i can bang some hot female ghosts Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted May 11, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 11, 2015 ghosts don't need money. what i want is to be the hottest male ghost ever.want me to haunt glenn? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted May 11, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 11, 2015 skynight? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Klingsor Posted May 13, 2015 Report Share Posted May 13, 2015 Stupid. Trying to lighten the mood which was dumb. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jeep Posted May 14, 2015 Report Share Posted May 14, 2015 How are you feeling resolute? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted May 14, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 14, 2015 hi jeep; thanks, i'm feeling same as always i'd say. how are you? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted May 14, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 14, 2015 yes, god willing. i'll sure miss you guys. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted May 14, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 14, 2015 of course. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Klingsor Posted May 14, 2015 Report Share Posted May 14, 2015 I hope you come back if you change your mind or if things don't go quite as planned.Yes, absolutely. Nobody will think any the less of you. Far from it. mts 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted May 14, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 14, 2015 if i stay alive, and get some money, you can expect me back. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Klingsor Posted May 15, 2015 Report Share Posted May 15, 2015 I don't know if it's the 15th yet where you are resolute, but I will be thinking of you, buddy. I hope I will see you here again. I may not have access to the site much tomorrow, but wanted you to know you are in my prayers. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted May 15, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 15, 2015 thanks guys. sorry i may not see you friday klingsor, but i'll try being here as much as i can on friday, and will say my -probably- final goodbyes then. take care. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted May 15, 2015 Report Share Posted May 15, 2015 Nothing needs to be final, res. You can change your mind. You can stay here and not miss your friends. My PM box is open anytime. If you want to actually talk, my phone is available too. There are people who care. Your life matters. There is no way to know what tomorrow might bring...peace, hope, love.I hope you will stay safe. Jeep 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted May 15, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 15, 2015 my internet will be disconnected tomorrow, and i can't afford to pay the internet company, so i will have to miss my friends, of whom you are one. thank you for your kindness, i won't forget it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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