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I had my niece stay over last night, we hung out, ordered takeout and watched films. Managed to get through 2 Zombie films & 2 romantic teen films she's been wanting to watch after reading the books. Obviously the Zombie stuff was way cooler. She managed to stay here about a full 24hours which is cool. I had work to do this weekend but I'm glad I spent my time with her. Hope everyone's good.

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Last night was a bit of a bitch for me. Had a dream about some emotional stuff depicting real past events and woke up pretty upset. Spent a few hours lying there thinking myself an emotion fueled mess until I fell asleep again. 

 

My brain has continued to improve, my last few scan results showed more function across various areas. Im beginning to feel a little better too. I don't mean this in a self righteous beggy way, but I'm glad I opted to continue with treatment despite my anxiety which acted in opposition to it. There's still a way to go and the future is uncertain, so this isn't a premature celebration but more of a mid-war acknowledgement of lives lost, flags captured and time served.

 

I'm at my parents house and they're sickeningly proud of me. I'm used to their disappointment & disapproval. It makes me sick. We're celebrating a bit of good news I've had at work. Looks like I'm allowed at the "big boy" table after all. If I sounded self indulgent here I didn't mean to. I'm a little pissy and glum as usual and thought I'd post.

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Yeah, thanks. I'm trying to balance work & family stuff. I ain't really close to my parents & siblings, not in a communication sense anyway. I'm close to 2 of my nieces though, and I love spending time with them. We hang out several times a week and I'm trying to maintain that.

 

The problem is that I've noticed they emulate me, and adopt my opinions as their own. I'm not a role model, so I've insisted to them that I'm super lame, but eh, I suppose if you spend enough time with them you sort synchronise. A few years ago I accidentally walked in on my dad instructing my younger sister not to turn out like me. She hasn't done and I'm proud of her for it.

 

I'm absolutely certain that my nieces have recieved those exact instructions on numerous occasions im their green lives, heck, I tell them myself. Whatever you do, don't turn out the way I did. I'm not one of those guys that can say that non chalantly, it hurts me every fucking time. 

 

My, how the mediocre have fallen. It isn't all career related. I'm mostly a recluse, single, and don't have any hobbies. I can't even process the whole hobbies/interests world. What is that? I like films but that's about all. I don't read, I don't socialise, and I don't care for going out to shitty little events. A class A loser.

 

Now my family seem more accepting of my idiosyncrasies rather than associating them with me being slothful. Im not necessarily idle, I simply gain no obvious pleasure from participating in meaningless social events. It's like fuck me, I threw this ball and knocked over those pins. Look at us go. We're fucking legends. No. We're not. I could be at home indulging myself rather than prancing around with these social clones.

 

So yeah, I'm still a bit of a fail. Anyway, had another moment. I'd apologise but if you do mind don't visit my thread. It's kind of what I do.

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idk how you can be close with your nieces. i can't tolerate teenagers, specially teenage girls. how stimulating can the conversation be? but i guess being lame gives you an an edge of sorts (makes you more compatible with teens) lol. :P

what are you talking about, no hobbies? you like films, tea, zombies, vampires, bats, superhero wannabes (like batman), being naked in the rain and so on. ;)

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Some of the shit they concern themselves with is pretty dumb and I can't relate. But for the most part I like what they're about. I can't relate to my sisters though. I feel a special bond with my younger sister because we played a lot as kids. She's outgrown me now. She lives a pretty active life so I'm left behind in that regard. She's more educated than me too. 

 

I'm cool with my brothers. We get along and stuff, but we don't really hang out. When I went through a dangerously reclusive stage (rubbing shit on my face and drinking my own piss - not really) my eldest brother tried encouraging me to go out. Obviously I never did and when I didn't, he came to my flat most days after work and watched a film with me. I hated him for that at the time but I'm pretty certain I would have offed myself if he never. Needless to say though, it wasn't balanced relationship we has because I was such a fuck up.

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  • 3 weeks later...

I watched Batman vs Superman yesterday and I'm so disappointed. Who writes this shit?  I've been looking forward to it for more than a year and all I get in return is some overcooked flick with way too much action and no storyline. Blah. Fail.

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I considered watching it on Netflix, but I don't like the main character much. The show is an extension of Breaking Bad, and if I remember correctly he was some two bit crooked lawyer with an annoyingly whiny voice. I suppose he must've turned a new page idk. 

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DC are preparing Justice League films to compete with Marvel's Avengers franchise, hence the name Dawn of Justice. Rather than telling a comprehensive Batman vs Superman tale, they basically spent the film setting the scene for the J-league heroes & villains. That's why it sucked. Needlessly complex subplots with a virtually unexplained main plot. Damn it tell me about Bats & Supes. I wanted the juicy details, not mind numbing explosion with OTT CGI shit :'(

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Batman has faced Superman before several times in the comic books, but since it had never been done on film it was supposed to be an iconic experience. They're part of the same universe so in theory, metropolis & Gotham city can coexist. They should have spent the film developing both characters & their alter egos, focusing on adjustments each had gone through since the Man of Steel film. (This was essentially man of Steel 2).

 

It was pretty much ignored, and the film jumped into bulshitty action. Batman & Superman weren't even the main theme a lot of the time, because Zack Snyder et al had decided to include other heroes & villains. It should have been called: The setting for Justice League, featuring Batman & Superman. Wasted opportunity man :( I hope I haven't said too much. 

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8 minutes ago, Resolute said:

hey, sorry it was so "anticlimactic" lol. well, there's always eurin 2016 which i'm looking forward to. i think england might suck less than usual this tournament :D.

Oh yass. Can't wait. I'm backing Ze Germans as per usual. England came runner up to West Indies In T20 cricket today. Not that anyone cares about that lol

 

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germany was ahead of england 2-0 (gomez scored a nice goal but was wrongfully discounted as offside) but england scored 3 in the last half hour after hodgson brought in some substitutes. and they beat italy 4-1. of course you know these are exhibition games, mostly for training purposes.

by "picks" you mean assembly?

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Cool. I'll check out the highlights. England V Germany is never friendly LOL. It sounds promising though, hopefully an insight of things to come. I'm guessing Gomez is on form then right? He wasn't even on the squad for the world cup :wacko:

 

Nah I meant teams. Who do you reckon meet in the final? And who wins the cup? 

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