It's very easy to lose new habits. I realized this morning that I had forgotten my new medication last night, for instance. Too, it was hard to think of anything to write about, today, but I find it helpful to write, so I'm doing it. Maybe the only thing harder than losing new habits is deciding to form them in the first place. Reading the self-help section of the Topics here, they mention the importance of making a formal plan and reviewing it often. Haven't done that. And I can feel the i
Well, after being informed of my mother's Friday evening death on Sunday afternoon, I "decided" to "take Monday and Tuesday off". That is, I went to bed, without food or water, for two days. Luckily, my wife didn't leave me, and I had a doctor's appointment for Wednesday that I honored. He suggested Abilify for bipolar disorder, and I started taking it. Now, I know it's probably too early to feel significant effects, and all, but at least my wife and her kids were supportive over Thanksgiving.
Well, I did go to see my mother in the hospice, although I had to sneak over so my wife wouldn't know. My dad was there, sitting with her. She looked worse than I had ever seen her, almost a corpse already. God, what a way to say it ... But throughout the time I was there, I kept switching back and forth between the logical "Well, I guess it's her time, it might even be better for her to go" and me crying. Either way, it seemed to be mostly for me. There was no one there to connect to, any m
Looks like my mother may not live very much longer, or so they tell me. I haven't had any real contact with her or my dad for quite a while now. It's too much of a threat to my wife, who calls them both "shits" daily, in her ongoing attempt to make sure that I rely on nothing other than her. Luckily it doesn't work. :-) It has had the effect of cutting off actual contact, however. I look at it as the only way I can shield them from her, as long as I'm still with her. I miss them, for all th
Well, on advice, I read two of the Topics on here pretty much end-to-end, the "Emotional Resilience" and "Online Self-Help" ones. First, my congratulations on providing such a varied and deep series of articles. Dr. Phil can't match this! ;-) The Self-Help thing did bring certain personal tendencies into focus. First, the difficulty that I find with the methodical planning described there: probably just another form of "running away". Second, the difficulty I have with maintaining emotional
So, now that I've spent a little time blowing off steam that I've had to hold in, the question arises: why did I come to a support billboard? Besides the release of pressure already mentioned, several possibilities occur to me. First, it could be a "manipulative mind game", to refer to a post currently on the system. I could be seeking attention, validation, agreement that my problems are really there, etc. I have heard this called "emotional vampirism". I have been scanning, perhaps too ea
I have found writing, on occasion, helps me to dump stuff (by which my editor means "emotions") onto "paper" so that I can go back and look at them, and possibly experience them that way. It's safer if you read about it, like a newspaper story happening to someone else. I'm not really very well prepared for story-telling, today, but I thought that I would post something anyway, to make myself begin. We're planning another family trip for Christmas this year. Never mind how badly last year's tri
Hi, I am trying to stay away from my boyfriend,because we fight when we are together.I love him,but he want stop drinking.After seven years I know he will not change.So now I have to stop seeing him,because someone is going to wind up dead.I want him very bad right now!!
Hi. My husband divorced me a year and a half ago. Since then I have gone to counceling, kept a journal, admitted it's over, not dated at all and not talked to him in 8 months. From what I've read, I've done what I'm suppose to. So why does it still hurt so much at times? And do the serious trust issues I have concerning dating ever go away?
