We have eyes. :-)

What do you mean, Blossomy?

i mean like what do people see when they look at me ( sorry i'm not saying it right

It's okay, sweety. I was only teasing.

Well, I could try to describe what I saw, but I've done that before. Is there someone in particular who you mean? Would it help to ask you what you see when you look at you? Or to ask what people tell you they see (but keeping in mind which people say what)?

i don't like what i see.

Why? I mean, specifically, what is it you see, that you don't like?

that doesn't matter. i just wondered does everyone else see the same thing i see

Okay. Well, I liked what I saw, and what I feel that comes through our words together.

But that still doesn't tell you whether I "see the same thing" you see, because we might like different things.

i don't mean looks i just mean how people see me as a person.

Well, you seem like a nice person, to me.

What is it that you "see", or feel, about yourself that bothers you?

thanks marky.

i dunno i'm just confused.

What confused you?

i dunno. i'm sorry |

You don't have to apologize to me, sweety, you didn't do anything wrong. :-)

I just wish you "saw" yourself the way I see you, that's all.

i m just not good at explaining stuff. it makes sense in my head.

I won't make fun of you, if you try explaining.

Or, if you'd rather not, that's okay, too.

I would caution anyone from believing everything their brain tells them, though. ;-)

i've already tried and it didn't work. i hate the way customers look at me in work.

The customers at work don't know you, though. To them, you're just a girl who works there. It's sort of not their job to see you as a person ...? Now, maybe it means that you would prefer a job where people did see you as a person.

I understand that you tried to explain, and that I didn't get it. Maybe it's my fault? Is there a rule that you can only try stuff once, and if it doesn't work, you have to give up?

its not your fault. its my fault i'm so hopeless at explaining stuff. no there's no rule.

i feel like a machine in work and i know its not their job to see me as a person but why do they always have to make me feel so bad?

How do they make you feel bad, sweety?

the way they speak to me the way they look at me the way they practically throw stuff at me when i'm on tills instead of handing it to me.

Well, okay, so ... people are idiots. :-)

Is it okay to let them be idiots without it making you feel bad?

Another way to look at it:

Do you believe that if you were only able to be different, somehow, the other people would stop being idiots?

Because I don't believe that.

i try not to let it make me feel bad but it doesn't work. i wish i wasn't so sensitive |

Well, maybe it's just a bit too much like the way your mother treats you ... I still don't think you can change them, though.

yeah and i can't seem to change how they make me feel either.