Dear Jeremy, You asked what the matter was yesterday. Well. I'll tell you. First of all. Thank you for giving me the best part of yourself. That part is our son Niles. Now to the matter. I speak in real life terms, since no one can see you. I feel I'm not geting any support on the things I feel passionate about. For example the animals. One day, I'd like to go vegan. Right now, I can't aford it. These animals include the nurse mare foals being killed everyday. Another thing is children. People tell me to adopt. What they don't realize is Child Protective Services is much harder on blind people than other people. Here's an example. My child is outside playing. He or she comes in with a busted head. I take them to the hospital. I tell them what happened according to what my child told me. Because I didn't see what happen, they will automattically call Child wellfare, and my child is taken. That's the problem. In a nutshell, that's what's bothering me. I'm simply tired,and have had enough. In closing, I want to tell you how very near and dear you are to me. Always your loulmate, Deana