Preparing to Weather the Storm
I have a birthday coming up on the 10th, and I fear that this will really be hard for me since there will be no card, no hug, no telephone call, to tell me "Happy Birthday, Sis!". From this point on up through New Years is going to be really hard for me seeing as how there will be many firsts without my brother. There is my birthday, my nephews birthday (whom I will not get to see), Thanksgiving, my daughter's birthday, Christmas, and New Years. I have to be twice as strong on Christmas because my daughter's birthday is actually on Christmas day, and she's already talking about the sadness she feels that her uncle will not be there to celebrate with her. It will also be hard because seeing as how my parents have disowned me, I am not welcome to spend Christmas with them. However, I will send the kids with my husband so that they can have Christmas dinner with their grandparents.
My daughter has forgotten that my birthday is soon and I'm not about to bring it up to her. She will just feel guilty about not being able to get me something. My husband has forgotten as well. It's hard to accept that, but it's what I've got to do. We don't have the money to go out and do anything anyway.
I'm preparing the best way I know how, but can you really prepare when you don't know what to expect? My pain is unbearable on a daily basis, add what should be a special day to spend with your loved ones into the mix and it's the perfect recipe for ultimate sadness.
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