Coz thats wot I NEED to do to be able to function on any sort of level that I dont keep melting down

Infact today is the first time I've even thought about switching on my laptop for a few days (shocking aint it!)

Although I've not achieved much of anything really, each day I get up and force myself to stick to some form of scheule (even if it is completely basic for now)

Even though I'm really, really tempted each morning to just leave myself switched off from reality, I manage to force (litterally its at nagging levels at times) myself to do the basics, like get up, washed and dressed, do that totally disgusting thing called eating (which I totally hate presently), go to class, groups therapy and somehow manage to force a smile through it all (even if it is mostly through gritted teeth).

Still my hard work seems to be paying off, I'm scheduled to leave this hell hole in three weeks time - all going well (YiPpeEeeee!!!)

Don't know how often I will be popping on-line, as these days my time is pretty much taken up with everyday stuff that I'm learning to do again, but I hope that everyone is ok, and I think of you all often

Take care