You're no more annoying than I am. :-P

(How's that for turn-about?)

We all talk like that when we're depressed; it makes it easy to recognize and to cut you some slack for it.

This would be a good reason for finding other people to talk to. Even if you have to do it online. :-)

It's not that easy to find people to talk to.......or people who want to listen!

No, that's true: I didn't say it would be easy.

But it beats sitting at home alone drinking, doesn't it? :-)

I wasn't alone drinking, my cousin was sitting across from me laughing at me and reading twilight of course! How can I find people to talk to? Anyway I'm no good at talking.

Wait actually, I was alone drinking...........she didn't drink because she had to drive home............ that is kinda sad....

Meh. Same diff, as they used to say.

You talk to me pretty well. It's like that, only fewer exclamation points.

Yeah but I can't talk out loud about myself or I freeze up.. When you say find other people to talk to do you mean go to therapy? or should I just randomly walk up to a stranger and start talking...?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

Well, you could walk up to random strangers and start talking. If you filmed it, you could call it "Candid Camera".

But no, it's easier with random people you already know.

Therapy is one option; I'm sure someone has mentioned it before, and you have reasons not to. But reasons change; it's something to keep in mind.

Otherwise, though, you have to get to know some people first. That will definitely happen at college. And I know it's frightening to you. Just imagine, though: if you had never tried to talk here, you would never met 'finding', or me, or 'star' ... There are some possible risks, and there are some possible gains, and in my experience, the gains last longer. :-)

I only talked to one reallife person before about how I felt and that was my art tutor when I was drunk. But we did talk about it after (I wanted the ground to swallow me up) and she gave me her number and said to ring her if I ever needed to talk again. I'm glad I met ye here. I think of ye as my internet family now!!!!!!!!!!! It's funny, I talk to ye more than I talk to my real life family!

Yeah, I know it's hard, but anything that you have done before, you can do again. You have talked to one person in real life, and several online. That means you have the ability, even if it takes an effort.

We are all a family, of sorts. You don't get to choose your parents, dear, but after that, you get to choose all the rest of the people you spend time with. It's important to choose wisely, too!

Think about that, if it might ever help you: we chose you as our family, too.

Thanks fairy godmother!!!!!!!!!:) I'm glad to be part of this family. I hope we all stay friends forever!

I guess I'll probably start therapy in college...it's free I think. I did see an ad for low-cost therapy in the local paper aswel.

Darn, I had hoped you had forgotten that image ...

Maybe that's what Fate says I have to draw you: me as a fairy godmother.

It's great that you're thinking about therapy, hon. You are only getting input of one kind, at home, from the sound of it, and you could use that to fertilize a farmer's field, in my opinion. A therapist can help you check what they keep telling you.

Whoops, I meant to call you fairy godfather, not fairy godmother..............:)

Like I said before, I'm full of talk but I don't do half the things I say so I might never go to therapy. . . . . . ..

We're going to be your friends, whether you get therapy or not, hon. We may have an opinion, but it's your decision.

Thank you. I really would like to get better. I don't think I can live the rest of my life like this. Somedays I think to myself that I would like to go to therapy, other days the thoughts of it scares me. But I really would like to find someone to talk to before my time runs out.

You can do it, hon. If you want to get better, you will find a way, I'm sure of it. And you know we'll do whatever we can. So you can't lose!

Thanks uncle Malign;)

I'd actually go to therapy right now if I could.

I feel motivated:)

Ooooo, I'm good. :-)

Maybe we could bottle me, so you could get motivated whenever you needed to.

Draw me something quick, before it wears off. ;-)

Hey Blossom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to see your drawing

It's a crap drawing. I was drunk when I did it. I don't think It's gonna be wearing off for a while.............. I just drank some more diet coke!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now I feel even better:):)

Now how are you going to sleep???? You need someone to take care of you!!!

I'm probably not going to sleep:) I'm not tired anyway. I need to make the most of this feeling!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You're probably right, I'm no good at taking care of myself, I'd probably just live on coke if I got the chance......................................... I'm glad you're back finding:)

I'm glad to be back too, I missed you guys! The kids where I was working needed someone to help though, so it's good I was there too.

That's cool that you can help them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You're like a superherooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:)