I've been home for a while now, I get off at 4:30. My dad is out at a meeting so I was using the computer downstairs, but I've switched back to my phone and bed now

Chill out time (yay)

hope they leave you in peace

yeah, they'll most likely not bother me, my problem is I'll feel guilty for not being with my mom so I'll go down. (stupid, i know, but she does get upset if I don't sit with her)

thats really kind of you to do that, I wish it was easier for you at home. (its not stupid star)

thanks Jj, it's okay really, I mean I'm very used to it, I'm just tired and it's so much easier to be up here rather than down there where at any second all hell could break loose. But whatever, it's okay, I don't really care.

How are you doing tonight?

ohh, im just trying to stop crying, i read a thread earlier and i was stupid enough to let it get to me. (idiot) its my own fault im just over sensitive these days and always when i get like this paranoia sets in (never good)

i just cry all the time these days, over stupid stuff sometimes (hey hum)

it dosnt matter really

it matters Sue, and you're not an idiot, you're sad, understandably.

have you been able to sleep at all yet? It must make it even harder being so over tired. I'm sorry everything sucks so much

I cant sleep, my voices wont let me (there mean)

but I will just go into hybernationn soon, (i hope) then i might get some rest

tell the voices to moo off (cause that's what we tell mean people)

what do you mean hybernation? a long nap?

that saying is soo funny, i cant wait to be able to use it. it always makes me smile.

yeah kinda. last time I got this bad, back in july well i stayed awake for nearly a week, then I slept for a couple of days. woke up so dehydrated and felt like I had a hang over from hell.

I know, I must have said moo off at least a dozen times tonight and it makes me smile each time.

Maybe you should start drinking lots of water now, you know, store it up like a bear, and maybe you'll get less dehydrated this time

:)thats a good idea, cheers star:)

ha, I don't know if it'll actually work, you'll probably just have to get up alot to pee when you just want to sleep, it's probably not a good idea!

your probably right, maybe i will just leave a bottle of water by the bed for when i wake up

yeah, that's probably a better idea

you ok star ?

phillies are playing tonight (yay) its wednesday here now.

yeah, I'm okay.

oh yeah, it is wednesday there. I really hope the phillies win, and even more, I hope my dad watches the game upstairs!